severus and the elder wand.

2009-12-07T16:38:00.002+08:00

VSPARKS.

WAS.

~~F***ING.~~ EPIC.

FUN.

I honestly wanted to leave it as effing, or even spell the lovely word out in full, but I decided to censor because well, actually I don't know. But what the hell, this post isn't about censoring my cusses, but about last thursday and friday.

I had a terribly fun time those two days, hopefully the rest of you guys felt the same way yeah?

Anyway, it was vSparks and it honestly was the greatest time I have ever had in a long long time.

Okay I should not post pictures or anything, because the last time I tried that, blogger screwed itself upside down left right center, so forget about pictures. But anyway, the two days were filled with unglamness, cute and awesome but screaming little kids, lots and lots of laughter and of course not forgetting 07V14ness.

Thanks for coming down you guys, I really hope you guys had fun as well. I'm really thankful for this because it's pretty rare that we get to get together and do fun stuff and this time we achieved those AND CIP HOURS. So kudos to that(:

Okay so the first day was cool, and I really thought that the students' responses were brilliant as well so that was awesome.

The second day was even better and I'm glad we decided to change our plans slightly to incorporate wet games because it was BRILLIANT.

The kids were awesome as well, I really didn't expect their responses to be so enthusiastic and spontaneous. And I think it's so kickass that we'll probably do this again next year for them(:

Anyway, I'm just rambling on, I should probably stop now.

All in all, it was fun=D

Peace out.

2009-11-30T23:27:00.002+08:00

Gosh I haven't been here in the longest time ever.

And Blogger's not screwed up anymore, so I guess I should continue this blog?

Anyway, I have nada to talk about, so I really don't know, hm.

So since it's so dead, I have no will to revive it, and I highly doubt anyone ever comes here anymore, so I'll probably just leave this blog as it is after this post(:

Okay so if you're reading this, GO WATCH HK DRAMAS(:

Look, it proves it, it's fate that you have to watch them because you're probably the only one person who's reading this post because everyone else is probably like "Oh this stupid blog from this toot called siling is DEAD. So why visit here when I can stone in my bedroom instead?"

So if you're reading this, whoever you are, the heavens sent this message to you to watch the dramas. SO DO IT. Or face the wrath. Muhaha.

That was crazy. Not physically speaking to a human being makes me cranky.

I should see a psychiatrist.

What the hell, I'm monologue-ing.

Anyway, just one more thing I feel like crapping about for the last time on this blog, and here goes:

I HATE MYSELF.

Okay there, the last time I'm ever going to say that on this darn site.

For obvious reasons really, being dumb, insensitive, toot, horrible, twitty, and so many more.

Okay I'm done.

BYE EVERYONE(:

2009-09-05T21:59:00.000+08:00

IS IT JUST ME OR BLOGGER IS BLOODY SCREWED UP.

anyway, promos are coming. so i don't really know what i'm doing blogging.

DAMN YOU SILING.

going on a cuss hiatus. will not swear for as long as i can.

last lap. go.

Two Beds and a Coffee Machine - Savage Garden

And she takes another step

Slowly she opens the door

Check that he is sleeping

Pick up all the broken glass

And furniture on the floor

Been up half the night screaming

Now it's time to get away

Pack up the kids in the car

Another bruise to try and hide

Another alibi to write

Another ditch in the road

You keep moving

Another stop sign

You keep moving on

And the years go by so fast

Wonder how I ever made it through

And there are children to think of

Baby's asleep in the back seat

Wonder how they'll ever make it

Through this living nightmare

But the mind is an amazing thing

Full of candy dreams and new toys

And another cheap hotel

Two beds and a coffee machine

But there are groceries to buy

And she knows she'll have to go home

Another ditch in the road

You keep moving

Another stop sign

You keep moving on

And the years go by so fast

Wonder how I ever made it through

Another bruise to try and hide

Another alibi to write

Another lonely highway in the black of night

There's hope in the darkness

I know you're gonna make it

Another ditch in the road

Keep moving

Another stop sign

You keep moving on

And the years go by so fast

Silent fortress built to last

Wonder how I ever made it

2009-08-06T22:37:00.000+08:00

So Close - Jon McLaughlin

You’re in my arms

And all the world is calm

The music playing on for only two

So close together

And when I’m with you

So close to feeling alive

A life goes by

Romantic dreams will stop

So I bid mine goodbye and never knew

So close was waiting, waiting here with you

And now forever I know

All that I wanted to hold you

So close

So close to reaching that famous happy end

Almost believing this was not pretend

And now you’re beside me and look how far we’ve come

So far we are so close

How could I face the faceless days

If I should lose you now?

We’re so close

To reaching that famous happy end

And almost believing this was not pretend

Let’s go on dreaming for we know we are

So close

So close

And still so far

---

term3 is a sucky term.

i feel like just quitting school and running away to some calm and peaceful meadow and read and write books all day. heck, i'll be happy if i can just dream of all this.

arg.

tag replies:

kw: rickman(: ahhh pw honestly sucks=(

amanda: YEAA i wanna protest man=(

kktk: LOL yea that part very weird. stone in the theater lol.

chris: boo back at cha(:

2009-07-22T21:16:00.002+08:00

tag replies:

desiree: oh come on, it wasn't that bad! and that's a DAMN disgusting phrase lol, i so don't! he's just a brilliant actor okay:D

kwanwei: eh im interested in that okay! the harrypotter series is like my LIFE. and actually, snape appeared much more in this film than the others so yay:D it's an improvement haha.

kenneth: ahduh. yay go youtube(: honestly very nice. though it's romance, so dunno if you like this genre.

i can't believe the promos timetable is out already.

like just right after midyears. geez.

but oh well, at least it's pretty spread out.

watched halfbloodprince the other day, it was nice!

i think im the 1% of the population who thinks it's nice lol. but why ain't it nice!

tom felton was good, emma watson was brilliant, helena bonham carter was fantastic, alan rickman OWNED. only the plot was a little messed up and half the time i was like "uhhhhh." but still, it's halfbloodprince, HALF BLOODY PRINCE eh.

name after snapey, so it's not that bad honestly.

the only thing i didn't like was the kinda messedup characters. i didn't really like michael gambon in this, along with the oopt people. and the last part with snape and harry was just weirdly anticlimax (I JUST CRITICISED HIM OMGWTFBBQ)

but all in all, it was okay la.

and did i mention i really really don't like pw?

ahhh.

2009-07-15T18:45:00.002+08:00

HARRY POTTER AND THE HALF BLOOD PRINCE

premieres tomorrow!

*excited excited*

midyears are finally over, but somehow i feel more busy than before.

anyway, watched "truly, madly, deeply".

super nice and sweet movie, the ending was especially sweet. i havent cried while watching a movie in a long long time, but the ending really did make me tear.

PLUS got alan rickman (which was why i watched it in the first place)

so i recommend all romance movie lovers to watch!(:

okay back to fanficness.

2009-06-26T22:39:00.002+08:00

watch the latest half blood prince trailer,

i promise you will not regret(:

2009-06-24T22:55:00.003+08:00

and now ladies and gentlemen, i present to you absolutely cool photos from the 2010 film, tim burton's alice in wonderland(:
look forward to it!

helena bonham carter and the red queen.
i just couldnt resist but put her photo first coz in my opinion this photo is just kickass.
anne hathaway as the white queen

anddd of course
johnny depp as the mad hatter

WHERE'S ALAN RICKMAN'S PHOTO!!!
i demand one! he's playing as the caterpillar btw^^
*crawls*

2009-06-22T23:15:00.002+08:00

officially my favourite scenes from "love actually" that are actually a deleted scenes, but ohsofunny ones(:

the scenes are about bernard, harry's and karen's bad son. i LOVE the harry scene=D
shame i can't post it up here. oh shucks.
i shall post the dialogue! (do imagine them speaking in their english accents if you happen to read this)

scene1:
karen: so what's this big news then?
daisy: we've been given our parts in the nativity play!
karen: *hyperventilates a little*
daisy: and i'm the lobster!
karen: the lobster?
daisy: yea!
karen: in the nativity play?
daisy: yea! first lobster *smiles*
karen: there was more than one lobster present at the birth of jesus?
daisy: *obvious look* uh. duh?
karen: *thinks* excellent. what about you bernard?
bernard: wants to be a lobster, but i'm an angel. i hate angels, they're just made up rubbish.
karen: oh i don't know 'bout that, it's just that well, they probably don't have wings, they probably just look normal like you and me, but still cunningly wandering around doing good!
bernard: in our play they don't do good at all. they just stand there, looking like poofs saying "isn't baby jesus great?" when everyone knows it's just a stupid doll. i wanna be a lobster.
karen: *shrugs*
bernard: by the way, toby says uncle davy's a dickhead and i hate kebabs.
karen: right. charming child.

scene2:
harry: i say we should just give him away, we've got one very nice child, surely one's enough.
karen: since when did my bottom stop being my bottom and turned into britain's second largest sea port?
harry: don't be rude, i've invested a lot of time and emotions into that bottom. (LMAO)

scene3(at art museum) :
harry: what's this one called?
mark: christmas..vagina, i believe.
harry: and this one?
mark: that's vagina 2. a-as in vagina number two. rather than vagina also, but of course it is also..a..vagina.
karen: well. i think it's the best party venue eve-*looks at vagina art* oh. er oh. i particularly like the quartet of the four tops.
harry: *points in some direction* i think i'm suffering from that one.
karen: listen i've got to go and see the scary headmistress, bernie's in trouble again.
harry: oh what's he up to now? drug trafficking? want me to come with you?
karen: it's alright, i'll do it. *looks at mia* take my advice mia, don't marry. you give up work, lose your looks, and put all your life and laugh into children who turn out to be total bastards. at least certainly the boys do.
(AND SHE WONDERS WHY MIA CHOOSES TO BE HARRY'S MISTRESS. THIS ALL MAKES SENSE NOW. PHISH POSH.)

scene4:
this is one terribly looong scene which i shall not type in the dialogueXP

yay for love actually, the greatest christmas movie on earth.
i hate midyears=( and the june hols.
ah well.

tag replies:
kenneth: i bet i was a bigger toot. honestly, if you had seen me back then...*shudders*
amanda: haha oh well, i just as the memories came back it didnt seem so bad. but actually it was lol.XD no la, i was more toot for sureX)

2009-06-11T22:03:00.002+08:00

koped from amanda. not because i enjoyed my secondary school years, oh contrary.

If you enjoyed your sec school years, you'll do it.If you have nothing else to do, you'll do it.If you're here to read the questions/answers and pretend to hate to do it, deep down you'll still do it.This tag is so fun because the answers can go on and on.Read if you miss your sec school years.
(i only did this because i decided to take a break. also, i wanna see how much i forgot about dhs, which is probably 90++%)

1) Which school did you go to?
dunman high school.

2) What classes were you in?
1e'05, 2e'06

3) What was/were your favourite lesson(s)?
i think i can safely say, none. oh wait, geog under mrs george was good.

4) If you could remember, what time was your recess?
i dont even remember what time school ended everyday=.=

5) List down your favourite food/snacks.
ohoh i remember the yongtaufoo stall and their wonton. the drink stall was nice too.

Style
1) Did you have a nickname way back in high school?
im guessing yes but i dont remember.

2) How did you wear your socks?
disgustingly high with chinese characters on them. *shudders*

3) Have you been suspended due to the way you put on your uniform?
nope. i was the biggest toot on earth, i swear.

4) Were you given plenty of reminders about your appearance?
toots dont get reminders=.=

5) Who did you look up to when you were in high school?
uh. um. hm. you know, i have no idea.

Punishment
1) Name one memorable scene where you were punished in front of the whole class.
i think i was punished before, but everyone took it as a joke so, *shrugs*

2) How many times did you skip class? What were you doing?
OH COME ON, TOOTS DONT SKIP CLASSES. geez. this is not meant for toots, i swear.

3) Give one scene where you escaped from being caught/punished.
uh. one word: toot.

4) Did you vandalize any school property?
yup. shhh. it ain't that noticeable so let's keep it quiet.

5) Did you ever make any teacher cry?
toots. don't. make. teachers. cry. period. wth they just make teachers stone.

TEACHERS
1) Who was your favourite teacher?
oh mr hia was nice. kudos to mrs george. oh and what's the name of that chinese teacher, zhenglaoshi or smth. ohoh tanleehwee was nice too.

2) Describe your DM.
oh geez, who the hell was the DM. OHOH mr kiw! i think. well until he retired at least. ah never spoke to him. oh other than the time he told us to walk on the pavement because (everybody now) "cao3 shi4 you3 sheng1 ming4 de4"

3) Who was the funniest/weirdest/loudest teacher?
i suddenly got reminded of siva. he was weird. oh and tuigee.

Social Circle
1) Were you popular back then?
toots are not popular. in fact i think i was a big joke.

2) Were you in a big group of boys/girls or small ones?
pretty small.

3) Who were your best friends?
oh the dabish gang(:

4) Did you and your friends have nicknames?
dabish=.=

5) What were your favourite memories of you and your friends?
ohoh i have quite a lot of those. going to tm, going to jocelyn's house for almost every single project, going to yilin's house for homec, going out like everyday, tomm-pang on yilin's dad's car to get home and many many more. ah those were the days(: slackkkk.

Co-curricular Activities
1) What type of CCA were you in?
ST JOHN'S. woooooo.

2) What did you have to bring to your CCA?
ohgod time to regurgitate. uhh uniform (with rank, nametag, the button thing), beret(? i think?), belt, black socks, boots (NEED TO POLISH OMG), white socks, pe attire. and what else...OMG HAIRNET. how could i forget about that.

3) What did your CCA required you to do?
uhh first aid was part of it, the rest of it was FOOTDRILL and pt(: i like footdrill. oh and i will never forget ALC'05 and '06. 06 was especially memorable, because of nightwalk. ohoh and delta/dactyl(:

4) Got injured?
getting injured would be an important part of sjab. KIDs were hell. ohgosh and uniform checks.

Crushes/Lovers
1) Who was your first crush?
-

2) Are you in good terms with your last crush?
uhh.

3) Did you ever had a relationship with anyone in your sec school?
-

4) Have you ever made out in school?
-

Closing Ceremony
1) How did high school changed you?
it made me uncover the dark, selfish and uncaring side of schools. which can be a good or bad thing. hm.

2) Sing one verse of your school song.
uhh. one line goes like this: de ming zhong xue, chu li jia tong.
okay there. that's the best i could go. which is pretty good for me.

3) What was your favourite question?
damn, got test tomorrow?

4) Who/what will you remember from your high school?
dabish and SJ. oh and the scary stories, geez of all things to remember=.=

5) Any memories you will not forget.
all the dabish hangouts. NIGHTWALK was honestly unforgettable, i still get the creeps when i think about it. standard1 comp with delta. like almost all of the routine trainings. oh, mr hia saying "pararaarogram" in some weird singsong wayO.O changing in the toilet for sj, and yes it is in the toilet, not in the cubicle. er i think there are more, but they flit in and out of my mind.

and referring to my previous previous post, i also miss:
ms ong's illegible handwriting. sorry ms ong, but yea, it was really hard to read O.o but there was some class because it was yours, so ya it's a compliment.
because i opened my langarts file again and oh look what we found, the handwriting!

tag replies:
amanda: ohgosh, no worries ba, still got two weeks, chiong mug all the way!jy!
kenneth: hah. laoshi was hilarious.
kwanwei: haha it's like the world's gone mad ehXD honestly, it was quite nice(:
yijun: haha yea! your chinese teacher's now the chinese teacher for my class ppl haha!(:

2009-06-05T22:09:00.002+08:00

WHO ELSE HATES MIDYEARS?
damn exams, can't properly enjoy the holidays):
can't go out, can't slack, can't do fun stuff, can't do this, can't do that.
in desperate need of music, geez who has nice music to recommend?

and well, in relation to the previous post, i can't believe im saying this, but i actually miss goddamn friggin chinese.
i bet no one, like definitely no one misses chinese.
i think i miss lang arts more than chinese la, but just think about it, no more flipping through chinese dictionaries, no more cloze passages, no more chinese compres, no more chinese newspapers...okay maybe it's not that bad a thing.
but ah wth, i actually miss the laoshi eh.
okay enough reminiscing.
MUGGY.

tag replies:
kwanwei: haha yea, it was a killer. but quite sad that we're not taking it anymore ey.
amanda: yea same=( lang arts used to be so wth.
neha: yesyes haha. she's so cartoonX) ahhhh gp.
yijun: rofl sounds like a brand of chipsX)
kenneth: yup haha. your memory's quite good ey.
desiree: not emo! and ey, where are you now? haha i'll never forget the boxes.
leslie: haha lang arts lover can be emo person too!

2009-05-31T01:01:00.002+08:00

first relatively non-emo post in um, 2months i guess?
okay here goes:

so i was lying in my bed, reading gp essays, when suddenly this very familiar name appeared in the intro of one of the essays:
sigmund freud.
and so i went, eh that guys sounds damn familiar. so i went to dig out my langarts notes and found his name. and while i was doing that, i started browsing through all the langarts notes and realise that actually, i kinda miss langarts.
and guess what else i found? the "dear 07v14" thing ms ong gave us.
ah those memories. how friggin nostalgic.
i can't believe she was right in saying that we might just actually miss that darn subject. and the odd thing is, i don't even know what i miss about it lol.
i suppose it's the same blank faces most of us give during lessons, ms ong pulling her hair and being sooo exasperated with us, completely stoning and just copying stuff into the almight boxes.

it's just somewhat saddening that we can't learn about more disgusting theories. geesh.
it's so weird to miss langarts man. i thought i would be glad that i didnt have to do it anymore. but looking back and realising that you've already done 2 years of it and that it was somewhat a blast, you suddenly change your mind about it.
not that gp's not nice or anything, but it's just oddly different.
ah well. anyway, here's hoping everything's going well for ms ong.

2009-05-28T21:41:00.002+08:00

To Be With You - David Archuleta

I've been alone so many nights now

And I've been waiting for the stars to fall

I keep holding out for what I don't know

To be with you

Just to be with you

So here I am, staring at the moon tonight

Wondering how you look in this light

Maybe you're somewhere thinking about me, too

To be with you... there's nothing I wouldn't do

And I can't imagine two worlds spinning apart,

Come together eventually

And when we finally meet I'll know it's right

I'll be at the end of my restless road

But this journey, it was worth the fight

To be with you

Just to be holding you for the very first time,

Never letting go

What I wouldn't give to feel that way

Oh, to be with you

And I can't imagine two worlds spinning apart,

Come together eventually

And when you're standing here in front of me

That's when I know that God does exist

'Cause he will have answered every single prayer

To be with you

Just to be with you, yeah

someone once told me:
"follow your heart, and do what's right,
for what is in your head will lead you wrong."
i wish i could follow both.
sigh.

tag replies:
leslie: very long never have poking match already! tmr last day must have=D
neha: haha no problem(: glad you found your file! ah gee, cheering up is only for school (:
yijun: OW. haha i say fu you say ke!XD
amanda: haha perfecr fifth was fun=D mahjong's fun tooX)

2009-05-18T00:25:00.002+08:00

Your Call - Secondhand Serenade

Waiting for your call, I'm sick, call I'm angry
Call I'm desperate for your voice
Listening to the song we used to sing

In the car, do you remember

Butterfly, Early Summer

It's playing on repeat, Just like when we would meet

Like when we would meet

Cause I was born to tell you I love you

And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine

Stay with me tonight

Stripped and polished, I am new, I am fresh

I am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh

Cause every breath that you will take

When you are sitting next to me

Will bring life into my deepest hopes, What's your fantasy?

(What's your, what's your...)

Cause I was born to tell you I love you

And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine

Stay with me tonight

And I'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home[X4]

(I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

Cause I was born to tell you I love you

And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine

Stay with me tonight

Cause I was born to tell you I love you

And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine

Stay with me tonight

(I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

hopefully
i met the bars.
closing in, gates locked, key thrown and trapped in solitariness
you'll never know, thank god.
oh screw mondays, the day you seldom appear
"experience a minute of flying by jumping off buildings! hurry jump, limited space to land on!"
heyy sounds good. *jumps*

tag replies:
amanda: just ring next time! haha nvm de, my mom's not that scary(:
yijun: oo 2nd leg haha nice. wish i could join you guysXPP and yes man we rock beng! haha love ya too!

2009-05-07T21:51:00.002+08:00

Breakeven - The Script

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing

Just prayin' to a god that I don't believe in

Cos I got time while she got freedom

Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even

Her best days will be some of my worst

She finally met a man that's gonna put her first

While I'm wide awake she's no trouble sleeping

Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven... even... no

What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you,

And what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up that you're ok

I'm falling to pieces, yeah,

I'm falling to pieces

They say bad things happen for a reason

But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding

Cos she's moved on while I'm still grieving

And when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven even... no

What am I gonna to do when the best part of me was always you,

And what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up that you're ok

I'm falling to pieces, yeah,

I'm falling to pieces

(One still in love while the other ones leaving)

I'm falling to pieces

(Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven)

Oh you got his heart and my heart and none of the pain

You took your suitcase, I took the blame.

Now I'm try'na make sense of what little remains ooh

Cos you left me with no love and no love to my name.

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing

Just prayin' to a god that I don't believe in

Cos I got time while she got freedom

Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break

No it don't break

No it don't break even no

What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you and

What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up that you're ok

(Oh glad your okay now)

I'm falling to pieces yeah

(Oh I'm glad your okay)

I'm falling to pieces yeah

(One still in love while the other ones leaving)

I'm falling to pieces

(Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven)

Oh it don't break even no

personas
change
oh so often.
would you look this way at all
would you smile here at all
bring your charm and soul
bring it back.

tag replies:
leslie: haha i won on monday!=DDD or was it tuesday? eh? haha nvm, i won!(:

2009-05-01T23:53:00.002+08:00

Skyway Avenue - We The Kings

Blinded by the lights

Hold you through forever

Won't let you go

'Cause if you jump I will jump too

We will fall together

From the building's ledge

Never looking back at what we've done

We'll say it was love

'Cause I would die for you

On skyway avenue

thursday: a happy day.
time - you - well-spent.
cold yet hot those times were
utter embarassment, how i wish
time could turn back.
every second, yearning.

tag replies:
kwanwei: won't, no worries(: go blog!
leslie: LESLIE!!! havent poked you in ages haha. watch out on monday=D
yijun: beng! let's screw golf haha.

2009-04-21T19:13:00.002+08:00

"and i'd give up forever to see you"
oh what's the use.

life is meant to be screwed, isn't it?

the deserving people don't get the chance,

"coz i know that you'll feel me somehow"
and the hypocrites take their chance for granted.
elitists.
pshhmp.
"you're the closest to heaven that i'll ever be"
don't treasure eh, sure.
we'll see who's sorry at the end of the day.
and all the stress,
"and i don't wanna go home right now"
and pressure.
turning green, red and red.

injustice, some would say.

tag replies:
kwanwei: okay la. chris is a little worse(:
amanda: okay(: after sometime(:
desiree: okay that's one of the reasons why i would die sooner=.=
yijun: haha i shall be emo, vulgar and crude(:

2009-04-14T23:31:00.003+08:00

i never thought there would be such a drastic change.
lying to myself;
changing myself;
where's the old self?
suicide sounds like a more desirable option than life now.
so many things to say;
so little freedom to do so;
i'm not going to pretend it doesn't matter, because it does.
and the fact that it's only 2009...can i wish for time to pass any faster?
plunging into anti-social-ness;
not even rising to take breaths of air;
enough. enough now.
goodbye. *jumps*

tag replies:
kwanwei: ah well. i'll bring the work along with me when i suicide, if it'll help(:
yijun: from me?? limpeh asks why mannn=/

2009-04-07T22:48:00.002+08:00

Come Back To Me - David Cook

You say you gotta go and find yourself

You say that you’re becoming someone else

Don’t recognize the face in the mirror looking back at you

You say you’re leaving as you look away

I know there’s really nothing left to say

Just know I’m here whenever you need me

I’ll wait for you

So I’ll let you go

I’ll set you free

And when you see what you need to see

When you find you

Come back to me

Take your time I won’t go anywhere

Picture you with the wind in your hair

I’ll keep your things right where you left them

I’ll be here for you

Oh and I’ll let you go

I’ll set you free

And when you see what you need to see

When you find you

Come back to me

And I hope you find everything that you need

I’ll be right here waiting to see

You find you come back to me
I can’t get close if your not there

--

suicide
seems to be the only option.
i want the old me. i don't like me.
need to find me.
screw school. screw the amount of work that's piling up like nobody's business.
good luck and all the best to all who are applying for exco positions(:
VIP FTW.

tag replies:
yijun: yo pcbeng! haha thanks for the tag eh=D treat soon!(:
chris: boo back!(: talktoyouonline(:
neha: yo pcbeng again! screw work! it killsXP like *does hand action* wtf man

2009-03-23T21:38:00.002+08:00

Jesus Take The Wheel

She was driving last Friday on her way to Cincinnati

On a snow white Christmas Eve

Going home to see her Mama and her Daddy with the baby in the backseat

Fifty miles to go and she was running low on faith and gasoline

It'd been a long hard year

She had a lot on her mind and she didn't pay attention

she was going way too fast

Before she knew it she was spinning on a thin black sheet of glass

She saw both their lives flash before her eyes

She didn't even have time to cry

She was sooo scared

She threw her hands up in the air

Jesus take the wheel

Take it from my hands

Cause I can't do this on my own

I'm letting go

So give me one more chance

Save me from this road I'm on

Jesus take the wheel

It was still getting colder when she made it to the shoulder

And the car came to a stop

She cried when she saw that baby in the backseat sleeping like a rock

And for the first time in a long time

She bowed her head to pray

She said I'm sorry for the way

I've been living my life

I know I've got to change

So from now on tonight

Jesus take the wheel

Take it from my hands

Cause I can't do this on my own

I'm letting go

So give me one more chance

Save me from this road I'm on

nice song.
music ftw.
anyway, getting busy, work's piling up.
looking forward to this friday sorta, then can meet 14 again.
alright byebye.

(lagged) tag replies:
kktk: really? i think it's probably with desiree...never heard that song til recently lol. and it's not a poem! it's the nicest disney song whee.
amanda: yea man! they got off easy=/ pe tmr! and remind me to send you the songs:D
desiree: kenken sounds gay lol! crawlcrawlcrawl whee(:

2009-03-14T12:11:00.003+08:00

Somewhere Out There

Somewhere out there beneath the pale moonlight

Someone's thinking of me and loving me tonight

Somewhere out there someone's saying a prayer

That we'll find one another in that big somewhere out there

And even though I know how very far apart we are

It helps to think we might be wishing on the same bright star

And when the night wind starts to sing a lonesome lullaby

It helps to think we're sleeping underneath the same big sky

Somewhere out there if love can see us through

Then we'll be together somewhere out there

Out where dreams come true

And even though I know how very far apart we are

It helps to think we might be wishing on the same bright star

And when the night wind starts to sing a lonesome lullaby

It helps to think we're sleeping underneath the same big sky

Somewhere out there if love can see us through

Then we'll be together somewhere out there

Out where dreams come true

i seriously miss 07v14 so much.

and you can watch this if you're free: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Pc3OyvbJkj4 the dude does the impression of alan rickman so darn well.

2009-02-23T23:49:00.002+08:00

The Man Who Can't Be Moved - The Script

Going back to the corner where I first saw you,
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag I'm not gonna move,
Got some words on cardboard got your picture in my hand,
Saying if you see this girl can you tell her where I am,
Some try to hand me money they don't understand,
I'm not...broke I'm just a broken hearted man,
I know it makes no sense, but what else can I do,
How can I move on when I'm still in love with you...

Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.

So I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

Policeman says son you can't stay here,
I said there's someone I'm waiting for if it's a day, a month, a year,
Gotta stand my ground even if it rains or snows,
If she changes her mind this is the first place she will go.

Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.

So I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

People talk about the guy
Who's waiting on a girl...
Oohoohwoo
There are no holes in his shoes
But a big hole in his world...
Hmmmm

and maybe I'll get famous as man who can't be moved,
And maybe you won't mean to but you'll see me on the news,
And you'll come running to the corner...
Cos you'll know it's just for you

I'm the man who can't be moved
I'm the man who can't be moved...

Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.

So I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

Going back to the corner where I first saw you,
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag not I'm not gonna move.

the most awesome lyrics i've ever seen.
the most awesome song i've ever heard.
ownage.
hands down.

tagreplies
kwanwei: less than half! that was like, completely nothing as compared to the stuff i did!=(

2009-02-22T18:45:00.002+08:00

byebye
to
the happy
life.

Regretting about things is something that I do every so often because I've made so many mistakes, sometimes I make a mistake everyday. But all I know now is that I've made a great big mistake and there's no way to redeem myself for it, so all I can do is to hope for the best. Sorry. I'm not expecting anything, so I'm just hoping that there can be another chance.

yepyep.
byebye.

tag replies:
desiree: why did you delete it! and snow cake isnt a sissy name!=(
kwanwei: yep! so happy haha=D
amanda: haha i'm not sure i really like it because of the fiasco that happened last year but okay(:

2009-02-18T21:40:00.002+08:00

OKTO IS SHOWING

SNOW CAKE

THIS SATURDAY, 21ST OF FEBRUARY 2009
FROM 10PM to 12AM

watch watch watch!(:

and incidentally, it's alan rickman's birthday=D

tag replies:
amanda: haha i miss you too(: watch snow cake and be happy!=D
szeying: haha sure sure no problem man! how entertaining=D watch snow cake and be happy!

2009-02-15T17:10:00.003+08:00

happy 15th of february 2009
random date but ah well.
lessons started last week, was quite okay.
should be fine getting used to the system, though i still prefer having a classroom.

09s56 rules!(:
we're a bunch of crazy people who love mind gamesXDD
anyway, lots of stuff to do.

yesterday was valentine's day.
british actors and actresses deserve all the love!(:
okay byebye(:

tag replies:
alicia: *gasps* i cant believe you actually went haha. i feel so slackXPP
desiree: not your baby, and horti hooha sounds real weird haha. where did your blog disappear to!?
szeying: haha leslie cheer! sevvy snappeyy! =DD haha i miss hiding from orientation with you too! hope you're having fun in artsyy(:
leslie: HELLO LESLIE whom i created a special cheer for haha(: i'll send you the song if you want haha=DD
amanda: nono it's TJU HUA=D and don't forget rose lau(:

i sincerely apologise.
for so many things. that many until i'd probably spend the rest of my life listing them out.
im sorry.
im really sorry.
i know these words don't mean anything
so i'll take action.
i will.

2009-02-06T21:05:00.003+08:00

When I see your smile,

Tears roll down my face

I can't replace

And now that I'm strong, I have figured out,

How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul.

And I know I'll find deep inside me,

I can be the one.

crushed.

I will never let you fall

I'll stand up with you forever

I'll be there for you through it all

Even if saving you sends me to heaven.

once again.

It's okay

it's not okay.

Seasons are changing

And waves are crashing

And stars are falling all for us.

Days grow longer and nights grow shorter,

I can show you I'll be the one.

orientation's over.

new class next week...i can't say i'm really looking forward to it, but neither do i dread it very much.

sea carnival was today, mass dance probably just over.

it was fun being the stationmaster today, but the sun was ridiculously hot.

everyone got burnt like a chicken on a stick.

i'm red all over and the pain's starting to set in=/

it has been quite a fun week, i must admit.

my og gets better and more fun by the day(: although sadly not many people went for mass dance. can't say much myself, seeing as i didnt go as wellXP

thanks to my subog for being great, you guys are a great bunch of people.

alright.

the end.

tag replies:

rachu: i can't believe you just called me a freshman. you're evil=( and i'll always know. like come on, who else would do it other than the same ol' bunch of people?(:

desiree: you know, i think i'll listen to bernice, i wont answer to your calls of "baby" anymore(:

kktk: YOU DID IT AGAIN. noooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.

2009-01-30T19:58:00.002+08:00

class outing today!(:
it was really fun. had a really great time.
reached a little late, but daphne and marcus were the only ones there then(:
so when most came, we went up to the bowling at marina square!
haha it was real funny. daphne, our pro bowler, was off form at first! whyyy! haha. then my bloody bloody ball keeps getting stuck or smth, or no, it was the machine thing, as in whenever i bowl the first time, the thing doesnt record it as i've bowled so i get to go AGAIN. haha. and that happened like three or four timesXDDD

nearly watched a movie, but changed our minds in the end, so we went for lunch at pizza hut instead. shuyi is seriously weird and kinda picky haha. she only eats the mushrooms in the mushroom soup, and removes all the pineapples from her pizza! so alicia koped. haha. we laughed a lot during lunch haha.

then went to the arcade. bishibashi! haha. the arcade's a fun place but will waste a lot of moneyXP oh yea we kinda spammed the para para machines XPPP haha. kenneth and kwanwei were damn bloody funny when they were playing, like swimming and keep whacking aimlesslyXDD and the racing game! omg i suck at it like crapXP time crisis was fun! but i died real fast=/ too long never play le.

then had to rush off for golf hais. oh yea, i think i should really apologise to szeying for all the teasingXP sorry! rest assure you wont have to listen to our insults as often this year since we're in different classes=/
i realised this post is so cheerful. hm. well.

tag replies:
desiree: haha i see im friendlier than you(: reunion was fun(: very very belated happy cny to you too haha(:
rachu: it's okay i guess, we'll hang out loads(: and im sorry=( love you guys man, will miss you guys! potata O.O
kenneth: haha happy NIU year to you too(: you and your ridiculous jokesXP
kwanwei: yea man=( hais but we'll have more outings hopefully! love you guys loads!
kundan: eh...actually im not sure if i want to be bluffed by you guys again by the tapping shoulders thingXP haha. but thanks for everything man, miss you guys like crazy!

2009-01-24T21:22:00.002+08:00

byebye very soon(:
had reunion lunch today. oh but before that, went to temple for some praying, the whole family went.
then um, went to some far-out place to have lunch.
i swear i love my family. well, my cousins anyway.
wanted to go out with them after the lunch but i bloody forgot to bring out my wallet=/
had a really fun time today(:
and sueannjiejie keeps saying i am "nokia 6233" lolXP
coz we took a couple of photos, and then sent them around with bluetooth.
and ahfenjiejie couldn't find sueannjiejie on her phone, but this "nokia 6233" person kept coming up ahaha.

anyway, i had a bit of spare time just now, and i found something really weird to do that can waste time haha.
you think of a celebrity, like say, "kate winslet".
then you think of something that has got nothing to do with the celebrity you thought of, like say, the jonas brothers.
and then you go to wikipedia and start with the "jonas brothers" article and click links on that page to go to another and another and another, until you reach "kate winslet".
haha. so waste time.
so basically, mine went like this:
jonas brothers, miley cyrus, big fish, helena bonham carter, harry potter and the order of the phoenix (film), emma thompson, sense and sensibility and finally, kate winslet.
haha. hm, 8 links. can do better haha.

whee okay time to go.
byebye(:

2009-01-23T21:37:00.002+08:00

i finally changed my blogskin.
i truly think everything i say is evilXP well, at least 90% of the time anyway.
leaving very soon..
sadly. if not there'll be more chances to go out with the class.

hopefully when i see those distant cousins of mine, they haven't grown up too much.
or turned into bitches and bimbos.
or both.
*shudders*
to think, they used to be such cute little kids. or maybe not.
ahh wth im contradicting myself like free.
hah.
probably will post one more time before i go(:

and also, thanks thanks and thanks so much to everyone who was concerned about silly ol' me. i really appreciate truckloads, and im truly fine already so(:

tag replies:
kwanwei: haha oh yea, love the class(: and thanks for everything(: will miss you guys loads!
alicia: haha mai emo, okay la listen to you(: ya okay, wise words from alicia(:
szeying: haha it's okay, spamming is good(: oh yay! i'll treasure that chance haha. love you guys!
desiree: oh no don't cry! that wasnt my intention=( and i won't emo le(: yea friends forever! oh and you're back from camp!(:
germ: haha i happy le!=D so sorry for making others emo=( i'll miss all you guys! love all you man!

2009-01-19T18:48:00.002+08:00

well.
today has been such an exciting day.
excitingly depressing.
seeing as there's nothing that can be done about it, the only thing to do is to live with it then.

here goes the emo stuff:
when we truly split into our j1 classes, believe me when i say i'll be very very very sad.
i can't imagine the days when i lug my bag into the canteen, put it down and survey the scene:
i'll see amanda telling her lame jokes and the people around her go "diaozzz" and i won't be there to do the same.
i'll see germaine poking people here and there and being really cute but i won't be truly there to see it.
i'll see alicia, all white as usual, playing her psp and djmax-battling with some other dude who has the game but i won't have the chance to do the same thing again.
i'll see rachna laughing her crazy laughter and discussing films with the arts people but i won't be there to laugh along with her.
i'll see szeying fangirling about her japanese guys and talking about anime and more but i won't be there to hear about them.
i'll see shuyi glistening under the sunlight, talking to her very smart friends and occasionally calling people noobs but i won't be there to call her a noob back.

i'll see desiree cursing, swearing and doing all things sick but i won't be there to laugh at whatever crazy thing she's doing.

i'll see chris nagging a little and asking people to go shopping with him but i won't be part of that group.

i'll see kwanwei laughing way out loud at the weirdest of things and i'll probably smile upon seeing and hearing that ever so infectious laughter but stop abruptly because i won't be there to really be in with the joke.

i'll see kenneth telling his lame jokes and maybe sometimes people will laugh and i won't be there to go "stupid joke la kenneth!"

i'll see jonathan giving people a really blur look and also being very blur and i won't be there to go "jonathan, you really really REALLY very blur haha".

i'll see kundan doing his touch-other-shoulder-but-be-on-the-other-side trick on other people, and go "yes!" whenever people fall for his trick and i won't be part of the group of people he does he trick on anymore.

i'll see lavan being really bastard as usual and doing really stupid stuff and i won't be there to scold him or bastard him.

i'll see all of you hanging out with each other or your new friends, but i won't be there with you guys.

i'll miss you guys. a lot.

2009-01-18T22:19:00.002+08:00

thanks,

thanks for everything.

tag reply:

kwanwei: haha yea they're funny, i started laughing like crap when i read themXD

2009-01-15T21:50:00.003+08:00

so anyway, i decided to do a continuation of what i said yesterday, about this avid fan who writes all the movies reviews such that it sounds like AR's the main character of the movies(:
i like the following:

The Winter Guest
This is a very short movie that lasts about two seconds. What happens is this. A man on the street (Rickman) runs into this old woman, and because he is really polite, lifts his hat in apology. The end. Every man should be as polite as that man on the street.

Sense And Sensibility
The title of this movie is misleading, because no one in this film possesses any of these aforementioned traits. First, there's this middle aged man whose name is Colonel Brandon (Rickman). He's really nice and handsome and charming. Basically, a great guy. Then there's this lady by the name of Elinor. She's pretty, witty, well mannered, and single. They look perfect together. Then what happens? (Here comes the first blow.) Brandon decides to go for Elinor's sister! Where's the sense in that? The sister is everything Elinor isn't. And she's so important to this movie I forgot her name. So let's just call her Sis. Now here comes the second blow. Sis rejects Brandon. She rejects him. As in, refuses him. As in, does not want to marry him. No wait, first she insults him by saying he has rheumatism, and then she rejects him. Hello? What happened to sensibility? Well, to make a long and painful story short, in the end Brandon marries Sis and Elinor marries that other guy whom I also don't know the name of. And then the movie ends.

Lord Of The Rings
The main character (Rickman) never appears in this movie at all. Hm. Odd. Don't watch it.

get a load of the last oneXDDD
and the one on "sense and sensibility" is SO true.
last day of school for the week(:

tag replies:
desiree: haha(: whattt! wow haha you best. i guess the show wasnt too clear, but the singing was fine! johnny depp's quite good(:
kwanwei: haha not really, i just suddenly saw it(:

2009-01-14T22:30:00.002+08:00

another day in school.
time is passing so slowly, i swear someone's tampering with it.
two more days til this week ends.
don't even know what we're doing next week.
anyway, i just saw something atrocious.
look at this:
"At his old Fleet Street lodgings above Mrs. Nellie Lovett's (Helena Bonham Carter) pie shop, he discovers that Lucy, having been raped by Turpin, has poisoned herself, and his teenage daughter Johanna (Jayne Wisener) is now Turpin's ward, and like her mother before her, is the object of his unwanted affections. Todd vows revenge, reopening his barber shop in the upstairs flat." (taken from the Sweeney Todd: The Demon Barber of Fleet Street (2007) article on wikipedia)
what on bloody earth is that monstrosity??
"unwanted affections". alan rickman's affections are always wanted.
lucy and johanna are so silly. tsk.
just read this really hilarious AR fansite which gives movies reviews on most of the AR movies. and the funny part is that they write it so that it sounds like alan rickman's the leading actor of ALL the movies he acted in. =D
fans are aplenty (:

tag replies:
szeying: haha "a life of pee" sounds odd. and yay i found a way to get your guys to come to my house=D
kwanwei: haha yea man, we should do that again=D
desiree: okkkk(: let's pray no more brain cells get squashed. *squish*.

2009-01-12T21:42:00.002+08:00

school has started.
by jove. it has been two bloody months.
a sense of homelessness has already set in on the very first day.
we can no longer call t24 our classroom. nay, it is now an ip classroom, one which we have no rights over.
had some workshop before going to collect the dreaded higher chinese results.
it was real nerve-wrecking. was trapped in that tiny little seat, shaking like mad while waiting for the results to come my way.
in the end, it was okay(: no more chinese! thanked our laoshi, who stuck with us for the last two years. despite all the whining and complaining, i guess we've come to a peaceful end(:
went for lunch, and then szeying, christopher, kwanwei and desiree came over to my house for mahjong(: and some time later, we formed this will-not-let-chris-win alliance and it really worked=D
school tomorrow again.
*dreads*

tag replies:
kwanwei: haha thank god it wasnt too hot(: but stil turned red ehXP
szeying: haha it's okay(: yay our 2nd mahjong session!=D
amanda: haha i thought for a while as to how to describe the latenessXP you missed out on a mahjong session!

2009-01-06T18:29:00.002+08:00

school is starting soon.

have one thing to say:

indeed.

anyway, amanda, szeying and christopher came over to my house today.

two were extremely, insanely late(:

played pool for a while, before going to my house for mahjong(:

love that game.
sentosa tomorrow, pray the sun's not too hot.

tag replies:

kwanwei: oh yea i read some blog posts about that...sentosa tomorrow! see you!

desiree: yea it was! but the snow was really really soft and nice(:

elle: yea fiona was completely cheating haha. yea definitely(:

2008-12-30T20:12:00.004+08:00

okay so i can't help but blog a little more about the trip.

the snow was awesome, words can't describe.

and switzerland's really great, nearly bought a swiss knife there.

the alps were really cool,

the colosseum would be real nice if it were covered in marble

and duomo was really really big and grand.
so just one photo which i like (because of the snow!)

had a 6/4'04 outing on monday! was really fun(:
even if it was primary school, it made a big impact on my life and i didn't realise how much i missed them until i met them(:
we've all grown up! hah. even xianjue. but she's still as lame as ever.
oh and halfway through, limeng suddenly went :"i miss mdm choo." wth???
played volleyball and some ball games at first, then closer to the end of the day, we played mafia. really fun game=D too bad can't meet them tomorrow for another class outing, hope there'll be another one soon(:

6/4'04! awesome class=D

tag replies:
kw: yea it's really quite tinyXP glad you had fun(: how was the kbox outing?
szeying: freak weather is good=D touch snow and it freezes your hand and turns it stiff and red haha.

2008-12-25T09:09:00.002+08:00

merry christmas to everyone.
and im back from italy.
i realise that i never do blog about trips, and i guess this will be no exception.
but one thing i should say is, i thought i was going to just one country, but i ended up visiting three. italy, vatican city and switzerland. there's a shock.
i only found out that we were going to switzerland about an hour before we arrived there.
still, not complaining, it's a great place with absolutely great snow. i was chucking snowballs at my mom and dadXP
overall, it was a great experience(:

tag replies:
desiree: yep, we havent got many photos from kundan yet...i suppose next year.
rachu: hey there, no i wasnt in sg then but now i am. are you back from india already?
chris: hey, oh yea i heard about it but havent heard it yet. i'll try it soon, thanks(:

2008-12-10T21:30:00.002+08:00

another fajs outing today(:
came over to my house. i can't believe it, jo and angel were one hour late again. but then again i didn't show up on time so, ah well.
played monopoly for 4 goddamn freaking hours. JO BECAME BANKRUPT FIRST MUHAHA.
then me second, and then fi won. bloody hell built 5 hotels, kickass own.
there was a lot of underhand stuff, best game of monopoly ever haha.
then went to play pool. me and angel won yet again=D
oh yes, fi's letter was funny hah. yea the billiard table was cute okay?(:
fi and jo are the funniest team on earth when it comes to playing poolX)
another fajs outing soon(:
and it is now 9.43pm, "snow white and the seven dwarves" is about to end at the drama centre theatre! they owe us a photo=X

tag replies:
kwanwei: yea sakae was nice man=D the play was awesome! haha. hope you're enjoying your trip now!
sulin: hey! haha nice meeting you that day(: iris is an awesome song!(:
amanda: yea SEB TAN!!!!!! =DDDD yea such a nice play!
hello: hello again=D
szeying: yea sakae man! rocks haha.
alicia: crazy...hey i update often okay(: mine is like, summary. doesn't need to be too long=D what's on the 26th of november? and thanks man, thanks for flooding again.
desiree: hey, nope not yet. im leaving next monday(: aw that's real sad, hope to see you soon(:

2008-12-06T19:25:00.002+08:00

so i thought, i should blog.
and thus this post appeared.

this week was fine and fun(:
went out with j.a.c.k. on thursday,
no wait, we changed name. we're now the f.a.j.s. (pronounced as fagsXP angel came up with it.)
so met at tampines mall and had lunch
and then we had to walk from tampines to simei. why? because jo...ah never mind. i shall spare you from the embarassment and not retell the whole story againXP
so we went to epg and did all the nostalgic stuff(:
played pool!
and look at us, we're so old now, like santa claus.

went out with amanda, daphne, szeying, kwanwei and christopher yesterday before going for the play.
um, walked around a little before going to sakae sushi for dinner because got voucher that was gonna expire on that day.
then the play(: it was nice. funny and entertaining.
sebastian tan!

AND. GOOD NEWS.
channel 5 is showing "love actually" on the 14th of december at 11.00pm!
it's a nice christmas film, watch!(:
okay byebye=D

tag replies:
kwanwei: it's a normal obsession, not weird(:
jo: yea man, music rocks(: so how's the planning for the next outing going?(:
hello: um hello(:

2008-11-26T16:09:00.002+08:00

firstly, sweeney todd:

most of the past few days have been spent watching movies.

i am proud to say that i have watched 9 movies that alan rickman has starred in.

"die hard" next(: after this week probably.

do watch "love actually". the uncensored version (the one that never reached the shores of our lovely little red dot) is way scary.

oh, channel 8's 45th anniversary was screened on sunday.

the tribute to jack neo and his gang was funny(:

and so was the segment which followed right after that.

right. got to go.

tag replies:

amanda: yep...is that good or bad? yea i love chatting with you guys(:

alicia: right...um. right. yea sure. probably 1000bucks now right. and i'm gonna continue using it until the sun burns out and all that's left of earth is a speck of dust(:

2008-11-22T22:13:00.002+08:00

Iris -
And I'd give up forever to touch you,
Cause I know that you feel me somehow.
You're the closest heaven that I'll ever be,
And I don't want to go home right now.

And all I can taste is this moment,
And all I can breathe is your life,
And sooner or later it's over,
I just don't want to miss you tonight.

And I don't want the world to see me,
Cause I don't think that they'd understand.
When everything's made to be broken,
I just want you to know who I am.

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming,
Or the moment of the truth in your lies.
When everything feels like the movies,
Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive.

And I don't want the world to see me,
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand.
When everything's made to be broken,
I just want you to know who I am.

And I don't want the world to see me,
Cause I don't think that they'd understand.
When everything's made to be broken,
I just want you to know who I am.

And I don't want the world to see me,
Cause I don't think that they'd understand.
When everything's made to be broken,
I just want you to know who I am.
I just want you to know who I am.
I just want you to know who I am.
I just want you to know who I am.

---

a rather old song, but nevertheless excellent.
the repeated lines may be a bore, but they reveal the whole meaning of the song.
"i just want you to know who i am."
oh how very true.

"sense and sensibility" is a nice film.
1995 film, dont ask why im so random to watch such an old movie.
the cast is great and the themes are excellent.

somehow, always at the end of every year, depression kinda takes over.
maybe it's just being alone and stuff.
you know, staying at home.
07 yearend was crap
08yearend is...hm.
oh went out with shuyi and amanda yesterday(: went to orchard and chatted quite a lot, which was fun(:

tag replies:
kwanwei: agreed, she's spastic manXP oh yes chili crab was weird and funny haha=D
desiree: haha i guess i got the way he said it right=D yea i missed playing games with you guys=/ want to start pirate in fornax? join kwanwei(: got 4x exp (:
amanda: haha yea, i was thinking of just saying "tell" but it seemed like i let him down if i dont type it right haha.

2008-11-18T12:03:00.002+08:00

lots of people did not believe the spastic-ness of the arcade girl during chalet.
i shall type out the whole conversation here:

me: excuse me, can change these coupons for the sweets there?
arcade girl: the 20 coupon one ah?
me: ya.
arcade girl: got two. you want dinoland *pause* or GUMMYGUMMYGUMMY (said at really fast speed)?
me: *stares.* *asks marcus* so you want dinoland or gummy...gummygummy?
marcus: *blank* i think gummy ah. got more.
me: kay. *to girl* we want gummy. gummygummy.
girl: gummygummygummy got two kind. you want futball or seafood?
me: *stone*
marcus: seafood.

and then we blank.
i swear that girl is weird...
must be see marcus so cute and spastic then follow.
and i swear marcus is spastic.
especially the part where the two late teachers were gonna come up:

marcus: we got tiao the fi-tirty, seven-tirty and the nine-tirty password. but we neh-ver (emphasis on neh-ver) tiao the eleven-tirty one.

there you have it.
spastic-ness.
ah im gonna miss 14.

tag reply:
amanda: refugee camp saved the lives of loads of people(: we must thank the gods. yay.

2008-11-17T12:01:00.004+08:00

~~sorry it took so long for this photo.~~
~~it lags my computer like shit-crap so yea, explains the long part.~~
~~a couple of people missing from this: shuyi, marcus, indri~~
~~enjoy.~~

i couldnt upload the bloody photo after all=.= too laggy.
plus the computer stoned for ages.
the photos are the individual shots thing.
whoever wants the photos, please do ask me for them instead.
thanks.

btw, did i mention how dumb i am?
yes i am the world's biggest dumbo.
k off to try to cure my dumbness.

tag replies:
germaine: yea i utterly love our refugee camp man(: chalet was great, emo session=(
kwanwei: yea haha. hangout-website(: i hate going to j1=X
szeying: yea man, refugee camp was the best(:

2008-11-15T18:08:00.003+08:00

you've probably already listened to lux aeterna before
but you just dont know that it goes by that name.
go ahead, listen to it,
press PLAY on the mini music player.

chalet was great, i had an awesome time.
words can't express my gratitude towards you guys
but perhaps i could just say:
the time spent with you guys was just priceless.
i'm gonna miss everyone.
refugee camp rocks.
i feel like telling the story of the refugee camp.
hm. shall set up a blog for that: entertainment and memories purposes.

got to go for now
bye.

tag replies:
desiree: no problemo. it's good if everyone benefits(:
jo: mrt is okay la...just a little unlucky for youXP
amanda: heya, same here=( let's go kbox(:

2008-11-08T00:14:00.003+08:00

backbackback home.
first and foremost, i'm very glad everyone had fun yesterday during prom(:
it seemed really fun and everyone was enjoying themselves: something that i'm glad happened.
i do regret not being able to attend this night, however, im really glad everyone had fun.
dinner yesterday was fine.
your usual dinner, with some paying-back at some people.

back on maple for some weird reason=/
all desiree's fault.
now in the e-world (also desiree's fault, somehow i just cant remember the name of the world after she introduced it to me as the e-world)
and becoming sinnnn(:
halloween quests were interesting(:

tag replies:
mrs archibald: i cant believe you smelled mr fong. um. just stick with you and nate okay? (:
chris: yay great. be sure to inform everyone of the new add.
jo: no problem, you can always hunt me down(:
germ: it's desiree's latest fetish... and it's a guy(:

p.s.: as you may have noticed, i've abandoned the idea of closing my blog=.= and yes im a twit.

2008-11-01T21:00:00.003+08:00

okay change of plans,
that last post shall be the third last post instead.
this will be the second last, because i do want to post one very last special post.
i was motivated to post today because well, i'm feeling particularly dejected today.

symposium 08 today.
wasn't anything much
though i feel that the speaker was good, better than the last 2 years anyway.
mostly in the science research room.
then after the presentations, got the pictures from janel.
everyone looks great(:

usual saturday routine.
tomorrow will seem like a normal sunday as well.
my life is quite monotonous.
i'm not sure if i want to change it.

(blank)( )
have you ever loved us;
have you ever cared;
if they were gone would you still
act in the same way?
many a things have happened
they come and go all day.
but nothing impacted more
than you going away.
i'd love to push you,
drive you far away,
but tears would fall and you'd never
come back anyday.
well, it's not like
you really cared anyway.
perhaps it's just
me, dreaming away.

tag replies:
germaine: yep(: i wanna stay away from blogger for now(:
mrs archibald: thanks(: it's okay, we'll meet along the corridors or smth in school anyway.
kwanwei: yea i have...but now i need a longer break(: yea chinese was fun for once haha.
szeying: yep(: haha it's okay, i'll still chase after you to blog=D
jo: because because because i need a break(:

2008-10-31T18:20:00.002+08:00

yello.
this is an official announcement:
severuselderus will be closing down on the 5th of november.
it's a special day because it's the day of the chinese olevels
and severuselderus wants to be laid down on that day,
therefore his wish must be obeyed.
oh and this will probably be either the last or second last post.

anyway, let me recap what happened this week. to be more precise, wednesday onwards.
wednesday was really fun and great,
thanks guys
for celebrating for me(:
even though i broke my almost 11 years streak of not celebrating.
and i vowed.
ah well. now i have a new vow: never go out on the 29th of october and never celebrate that day ever.
i will break the 11 years streak.
yes i will.
anyway, really thanks to everyone for turning up on that day
and making that day really special for me.
i gave up uploading photos=/

then yesterday was a normal day
with 3 hours plus of chinese coz there's like a short break in between the lessons.

then today was also a normal day.
jokes were being told during chinese today,
and it's weird, like many people didnt know about the fish bluff beehoon joke.
i heard it over 10 years ago when i was in primary school!
then amanda's aladdin joke and kwanwei's cake jokes were funny haha.
oh and we were for once released earlier for break today.

strange,
i seem to be more enthusiastic in chinese these days.
why.
hm. must be because it's the last few days of chinese lesson i'm ever gonna have.
oh but the laoshi is also more cheerful.
i dont have to listen to her anymore from next wednesday onwards! yessssss.

okay.
tag replies:
bluebloo: yea right...haha anyway, im happy you have stopped bugging the SGK(:
kwanwei: oh okay, haha i knew it was someone anyway. she stopped bugging us!=D
germaine: thanks!(: love you loads too! go out someday!=D

2008-10-28T18:44:00.002+08:00

today had chinese mock exam.
note to self: always bring a jacket into LT5.
my flu was bloody recovering until i stepped into LT5 and spent 4 effing hours writing chinese there.
now it's bloody back and my mom's gonna kill me=.=

it was honestly freezing in LT5
god knows what the temperature was
and best thing was, apparently you can't adjust the temperature.
and the bunch of us was just sitting there, shivering our guts out.
we picked up our pens and started writing cheenafied characters on paper, pausing every few seconds or so to tighten our grip on the pens because we were shivering so much that the words looked distorted.
goosebumps formed on our arms and legs and we, okay maybe just me, i looked like a bumpy tyre shaped like a human.
every few seconds, a sniff or a sneeze would come from somewhere in the LT, and as someone (i think it was desiree) put it, it was like a symphony of sniffs and sneezes. symphony in snifth.

then it was psl appreciation/inauguration next.
it was quite entertaining really.
and im so glad we didnt have to do it last year for the seniorsXP.

dinner tomorrow!
looking forward to it(:

tag replies:
kwanwei: yea haha. he's always very lame(: yea she did! my mom got pissed=D
szeying: haha yea somehow you made it onto her list...weird eh. and you ah, really fell for it big time haha. although yes i do agree with you, desiree best XD
shennlinn: i know haha! but funny right?=D
desiree: yea she does! and yes dont you just love my family?=D oh you'd better not try it again haha.
jo: HEY JOELLE CHEN! ouchesXP report! theives are evil=X
bluebloo: even though i already replied you, i shall reply you again(: er you're welcome? coz that sounds real wrong...why bluebloo anyway?

2008-10-25T11:49:00.003+08:00

my blog is full of crap(:

therefore i shall start talking about what happened in school and stuff.

monday:

feedback session in the morning. stoned mostly. the thing is, he's just trying to protect his beloved j1s and j2s and trying to make us feel like we are the ones who have done them wrong all along. and the best thing is he didnt bring a notebook or anything so he didnt note them whatever feedback we gave him. he must have supermemory or something.

tuesday:

sum of results and olevel briefing in the morning, but i went off for golf some time later.

I SKIPPED CHINESE ON TUESDAY! YESSSSS.

wednesday:

had OI presentations so just listened to the different groups. then split up into a few groups to do a collage on what 21st century thing. filler-period, that's all i have to say.

thursday:

did collage=.=

friday:

finished collage and presentation=.=

let off early though. so had around 2 hours.

oh and msn at night, DAZAREE started impersonating people=.= then she herself got confused and stopped. hah.

and now....i shall dedicate this portion of the post to my BELOVED CHINESE TEACHER who has taken a liking to calling the same few people in class to do crap, i.e. me, szeying and others. wtf 2 hours of chinese lesson this week, 4hours next week!

they might as well just murder me, how to survive 4 hours you tell me. and the chinese teacher was a genius, she called my mom and shouted at her. AP my mother in the morning. so obviously, my mom blew her top and screamed(: i love my mom. oh and apparently, the chinese teacher didnt even apologise for calling the wrong number and shouting.

then there's like so much bloody homework! and we changed classroom on friday, then me and szeying were sitting at the back of the class. then that woman ask us to move in front! wth! we werent even doing anything la, we were just sitting there, being good students, then she wth.

and to end this post, i shall post a picture and a dialogue between my dad and i(:

Me: Eh dad, you see this magazine. cosmopolitan right. you know it's unsuitable for the young, so dno got what content inside.

Dad: Really ah. we all cannot buy leh.

Me: why? you can buy what, you're not young.

Dad: I where got not young, i am your dad, means my surname also young, where got not young. they surname-ist leh.

i love my family(:

2008-10-24T21:56:00.002+08:00

稻香
還記得你說家是唯一的城堡隨著稻香河流繼續奔跑
微微笑小時候的夢我知道
不要哭讓螢火蟲帶著你逃跑鄉間的歌謠永遠的依靠
回家吧回到最初的美好

love this song
excellent lyrics, nice tune.
okay that's it..

tag replies:
desiree: yea haha. i was too when i first saw it. yea! too bad most of you guys went off already=/
jo: yea miss you too! hais we must meet up soon!

2008-10-23T22:11:00.002+08:00

my favourite photo of the day:

cool.

school has been quite boring these days.

just weird stuff in the morning and chinese later on.

then sometimes parkway, then home.

hm somehow i can't upload more than one photo.

i shall upload the rest tmr and stuff.

see ya.

2008-10-21T18:14:00.002+08:00

okay i lied.
here i am, bloody blogging again.
i went less than a day without blogging. ohmygod.
well anyway.
today was the golf skills test.
i got zero for the bloody wood. damn you you stupid loud-sounding, idiotic, fat, long and extremely difficult to control wood. i hate you.
then two for the effing chipping.
coach said is damn bloody nice, he's the nicest coach on earth man. i really hope he's still our coach next year.
and putting was great.

today with the ip2 golf people was really fun.
super funny, especially the dunman high partXP
cheenafied. and taoists. tsk.
lunch was okay, the prize presentation took forever though. and surprisingly, i actually got a prize for being 19th lol.

i'm also here now to say that spirited away is a great movie(:
okay that's it.
bye

2008-10-20T18:35:00.002+08:00

i've been posting way too often.
i must cut down.
so i shall see how long i can go without blogging after this post
therefore this post shall be a meaningful one.
hm.
meaningful.
the only thing i can think of is ip.

you know
i really can't believe that 2 years have passed.
it just feels like one or two months.
okay no that's impossible. if that's so, ihp is like 3 days long. kickass.
allow me to be weird and list out all the projects i have done throughout these 2 years:
IHP, SIP, imagineering, physics yog project, physics powerpoint project, biology xmen project, chemistry youztube project, math bingo project, chinese game creating project...
okay i know there are more. but they escaped=/
forget it, i will post a more meaningful post on the last day of school or something.
boohoo.

SOIDIERS COVERED IN SOUR CREAM & ONION

War begins and the people flee
To safer towns
And yet still unsafe the town remains.
Soldiers of white, brown, yellow or black
Run into the town with
Their warcries of "Kill! Kill so we can go home!"
The fluid on the ground
Is mixed with blood, sweat, tears, and sourcream&onion.

Oh dear.
A soldier falls onto the ground.
His already-ruined tastebuds shudder as they come into contact with the
Fluid.
A metallic, salty, sour, courageous and yet dead flavour
Unfolds itself onto the flabby thing.
The soldier cries,
Cries,
Cries as the enemies fire shots at him.
He tries to stand but all his energy was in his tears.
Dear him.

A soldier falls onto the ground.

tag replies:
jo: yea=/ olevels suck. hope fi's doing fine...okay i am so not cute.
szeying: ah your weird japanese shows are funny too(: drawing-gameX) okay i shall not understand it then(:

2008-10-19T22:09:00.002+08:00

and it's a green.
chinese homework is gay
music is my life
prince of tennis is cool
crisis core is alright
advent children is being watched
and it sucks to be me.
that avenue q song is getting stuck in my head=.=

the japanese woman in avenue q:
i coming to this country for opportunity
try to work in chinese restaurant
but i am japanese!
.....master degree in social world
and now i have therapist
but i have no cilent
and i have an unemployed fiancee
and we have a lot of bills to pay!
it suck to be me
it suck to be me
i say it sucka sucka sucka sucka sucka sucka sucka sucka sucka sucka sucka sucka suck
it suck to be me!

tag replies:
kwanwei: oh yea, i should have a will...hais.
desiree: actually no i dont regret swearing about lmn. or maybe just a little=/
szeying: i reflected on my life=/ and i realised i've been an idiot=(

2008-10-17T18:46:00.002+08:00

i've offended and pissed off many people and i know that.
therefore here, i apologise sincerely to all i have pissed off.
i apologise for my stupid behaviour which is very annoying and assholic.
i apologise for the way i do things, i really do.
i apologise for the things i've said, the insults i've hurled, the curses i've swore and the crap i have said on impulse. i really don't mean them, i do and say things without thinking and end up regretting what i've done 5 seconds later. please do forgive me, i promise to change.
i will henceforth cut down on the amount of swearing i do.
i apologise for whatever i've done. i know how much i suck at some things and really screw them up, i really am sorry for that.
i apologise for flaring up unnecessarily, something i do very very often. i will try to curb my anger and go for anger management classes.
lastly, i once again apologise to everyone i have offended or pissed off and i am truly remorseful. i have sinned and i will repent.

tag replies:
szeying: oh okay. i should have known...blog again about today(:
desiree: i can list you a thousand reasons why i prefer PCME to BCME. want to hear?
jo: i think it should be worth it though, and the bloody ex tickets are the ones for the good seats so should be okay...

2008-10-16T18:47:00.002+08:00

collected all my exam scripts already.
well.
i have nothing to say actually.
it just kinda confirms my subject combination choice.
but now im not so decided on other things.

anyway, who wants to watch avenue q?
it looks okay. and i havent watched a play in ages.
maybe i'll just ask my parents about it...
well.

PEACE

The fairy descends
Curious she was about the mortals
But all she saw
Was killing amongst enemies,
Hatred amongst friends,
Loveless towards your once-loved.

It was a cruel world she saw,
And the brutality shatters her heart
Into many
Many
Many
Pieces.

The perfect life she knew
Up there was not as perfect
As she thought.
"Protect us from above! Let us come to no harm! Oh heavens, please protect my family! My life can be taken, just not theirs..."
She cried
At the only touching scene she saw
And realised how little she has done for her people.

tag replies:
szeying: yea ct sessions were fun(: but mr boy probably doesnt have the time for another one=/
christopher: yep. sounded nice.

2008-10-15T17:09:00.002+08:00

101.
LOVELESS.

When the war of the beasts brings about the world’s end
The goddess descends from the sky
Wings of light and dark spread afar
She guides us to bliss, her gift everlasting

Infinite in mystery is the gift of the goddess
We seek it thus, and take to the sky
Ripples form on the water’s surface
The wandering soul knows no rest.

My friend, do you fly away now?
To a world that abhors you and I?
All that awaits you is a somber morrow
No matter where the winds may blow
My friend, your desire
Is the bringer of life, the gift of the goddess
Even if the morrow is barren of promises
Nothing shall forestall my return

My friend, the fates are cruel
There are no dreams, no honor remains
The arrow has left the bow of the goddess
My soul, corrupted by vengeance
Hath endured torment, to find the end of the journey
In my own salvationAnd your eternal slumber
Legend shall speak
Of sacrifice at world’s end
The wind sails over the water’s surface
Quietly, but surely

Even if the morrow is barren of promises
Nothing shall forestall my return
To become the dew that quenches the land
To spare the sands, the seas, the skies
I offer thee this silent sacrifice

tag replies:
desiree: who said i'm loveless? o.o see my latest post...
jo: haha cheenafied. what kind of weird word is that...and yea i wanna punch that guy(:

2008-10-12T13:06:00.002+08:00

100th anniversary.
wasted, just like this.
LOVELESS.

i had this dream.
it seemed...so real.
it seemed so real that it really scared me.
it was like a happy-ever-after ending, but it wasn't too happy.
it was like love and happiness, but sadness hidden within.
it was like a happy dream, but it was a nightmare.

disappointed
the swan takes flight,
into the lighted sky
where the moon smiles but the fairy cries
for she feels the sadness embedded
and it couldn't be contained.
she took her life.

tag replies:
desiree: you can't=.=
jo: those kids were dumb...i wanna beat them at basketball again(:
szeying: finally eh(: and yea, i think i'll go for green...

2008-10-10T19:19:00.003+08:00

green or black.
black or green.
green, the bright cheerful peaceful color
or black, the dark evil depressing color.

okay let's weigh the pros and cons.
green:
pros: could cheer me up a little
: according to blogthings, i need more green in my life
: a step away from the norm
: somewhat unique color.
cons: clashes.
: does not match my personality
black:
pros: matches my personality
: goes with how im feeling most of the time
: does not clash
: cool color.
cons: common
: said to be boring.

i need professional advice.
who would like to help me?
=/

tag replies:
jo: im like the bear?o.o because joelle scares small kids and ought to be scared once in a while herself(: and yes balls and sticks=D
desiree: i thought it was me kundan and marcus...okay nvm. thank god the weekend's here.
szeying: good(: i shall check on you hoho. enjoy your dinner=D
germaine: see my chinese how pro(: miss you germ!

2008-10-09T19:15:00.003+08:00

another chinese post!

nah.

i have a question:

what happened to that? (see below)

somehow it just disappeared.

hm.

i wonder.

i cant wait for the chinese olevels to be over

but at the same time, i don't want it to be over because when it's over, it will kinda signify the last few moments of ip.

such agony experienced.
i'll miss every single thing in v14. everyone, the always-dirty classroom, the fun, the breaking of hell-lot-of-stuff, the getting-screwed-by-the-teachers, the making-fun-of-almost-everything, the cursing and swearing, just everything.

except the bits that involve chinese.

and especially the cursing, swearing and bitching about everything. god, those were fun.

ah well. life goes on.

tag replies:

kwanwei: yea man i how enthu about chinese...wish i could get rid of her=/ she's such a pain in the ass.

jo: hoho! i know how to scare you off now=D POOL!!!!!

desiree: um. nuts can't satisfy anyone. and yes i did(: my chinese how pro. misconceptions that should be raised: one, we're NOT in love. two, no one is jealous. three: diapers can't be zipped or unzipped=.=

2008-10-08T19:27:00.002+08:00

这是我唯一一次用华文来博客的时候
这可能再也不会出现了
好像奇迹
今天真的是。。。无字能形容，无话可说。真是个难忘的一天。但不是好的一个难忘的一天。
那个不懂什么“妈撒什么什么”的女人，真的是气死人
明天还要看她，天啊。。。不懂她明天会做什么。我的天啊。
想把她给打倒了。那就天下太平，我变成超人了，哈哈。ok想象力太丰富了。

其实用华文也不错，大概没有人会读。
这样也好，那我随便随便写一些垃圾都没有问题，因为没有人会读。
太好了。
以后也应该用华文，哈哈。
九点播的戏蛮好看的。什么神探的，蛮好笑。也蛮聪明的。
好，我现在无话可说了。

for you, anything.

tag replies:
amanda: arg we have just found someone worse than her...and desiree is nuts. it's confirmed.

2008-10-06T19:01:00.002+08:00

i am slowly approaching my 100th post...
as i look back on my posts, i realised that i posted mostly random and irrelevant stuff.
what a sad blog.

caughtchaonthetube.

anyway, invigorate started today.
i thought it was a job welldone for all.
basketball for girls tomorrow!
yay.
wow that was a rare exclamation mark found on this blog.
or was it not?
hm. ohoh and i realised: siling is a twit.
goodbye, as the irrelevant and random stuff surface again.

obsessive love. the power of it is enough to commit murder and drive one to insanity.
it just strikes when you least expect it, don't you think so.
dreams are nothing but happiness when love appears.
strange, dreams are like gifts.
nightmares are reality.

tag replies:
desiree and germaine: you guys must be at horti...huh. desiree, like always, i have nothing to say about your attempts to freak me out (which i must say, is quite successful). and thanks germ(: yay kill desiree=D
alicia: hahaha your tags made me laugh(: i love it when you insult desiree(: and her reactions are just classic.

2008-10-02T21:37:00.002+08:00

there are two parts to me.

one: the cheerful, happy and sporty side. this is the side i usually show.

two: the sad, grey and suicidal side. this is the side i am when im alone.

there are two types of music i like to listen to.
one: happy and fast-beat songs. when im feeling phunked.

two: sad, emo, mushed songs. don't ask what's mushed. when im feeling like crap, which is 90% of the time.

2008-09-28T23:17:00.005+08:00

Love Story by Taylor Swift

We were both young when I first saw you.
I close my eyes and the flashback starts:
I'm standing there on a balcony in summer air.

See the lights, see the party, the ball gowns.
See you make your way through the crowd
and say hello;

Little did I know
That you were Romeo; you were throwing pebbles,
And my daddy said, "Stay away from Juliet."
And I was crying on the staircase,
begging you, 'Please, don't go.'"

And I said,
"Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone.
I'll be waiting; all there's left to do is run.
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story - baby just say 'Yes.'"

So I sneak out to the garden to see you.
We keep quiet 'cause we're dead if they knew.
So close your eyes; escape this town for a little while.
'Cause you were Romeo, I was a scarlet letter,
And my daddy said "Stay away from Juliet,"
But you were everything to me; I was begging you, 'Please, don't go,'"

And I said,
"Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone.
I'll be waiting; all there's left to do is run.
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story - baby just say 'Yes.'

Romeo save me - they're tryin' to tell me how to feel;
This love is difficult, but it's real.
Don't be afraid; we'll make it out of this mess.
It's a life story - baby just say "Yes.'"

- - -

what a great song.
prepared for the worst tomorrow.
i must be strong.

today is the 28th of september.

you'll never have to be alone.

tag replies:

kwanwei: huh why so secretive...okay you can tell me tomorrow(:

desiree: er...darn now i've got another reason to worry about going to school tomorrow. oh and i have nothing to say about your tags...they just weird me out.

2008-09-27T11:54:00.002+08:00

inv!gorate next next week..

just read something real weird.

apparently, for those going to watch the f1 night race, they were given this booklet.

and inside the booklet it went:

remember to get....your "all-important sunscreen"

hm.

so the sun comes out at night now...interesting concept.

america's got talent is such an entertaining show.

also quite inspiring sometimes.

and interesting.

and cool.

2008-09-25T23:09:00.003+08:00

a few more hours of internship
and it's done(:
learnt quite a lot of things from this week.
like achieving a perfect sense of balance while on the mrt because there's like morning rush in the morning and you can't really grab hold of a pole to stabilise yourself.
and setting goals. that's important.

next week is
hm.
ah darn it, don't feel like checking the timetable so i shall just leave it as that.

doodoo
gotcha a song.
喜欢你的时候就想爱你
爱你的时候我就想要你
你的微笑是那么地温馨
就知道没有你就会死去！

i can't believe i just copied and pasted something in chinese.
ohgosh.
oh bloody hell gosh.
im in a dilemma about bloody chinese.
on one hand i like chinese because of chinese movies, films, songs, drama serials and stuff.
on the other hand, i hate bloody chinese because of. enuff' said.

vone.

tag replies:
desiree: ah...i don't even know why i even bother replying to your tags since i know that you'll just tag again and again and again. but nvm. enjoy your last day at drew and napier tomorrow anyways(:
kwanwei: haha you're in charge of food preparation is it? should be quite okay right, cutting fruits, slicing chickens...
germ: haha mine's okay ba. today was quite okay(: tomorrow last day!=D then school! i can't believe it but i miss school haha.

2008-09-24T22:46:00.002+08:00

tag replies:
kwanwei: thanks dude, it's daily affair=( actually i got a little used to it lol...hais. hope you're having fun at the zoo(:
asyraf: haha i've learnt to set goals you see(: im going to learn from you tmr haha. yea two more days! i hope friday comes fast=D
desiree: -no comment- (: you're just gonna keep tagging on my tagboard arent you? you're quite persistent.
kenneth: haha longgg tags. thanks! but i think quite pointless. desiree'll just post again=/

TWO MORE DAYS TIL INTERNSHIP ENDS

vonehhhh.
vone (bluetooth connection)
EVAAAAA.

sorry that was random.
vonehhh.

2008-09-23T21:53:00.002+08:00

"Killing Spree" (sang to the tune of "Sk8er Boi")

She was a girl
Bitch was a dog
Can I make it anymore obvious?
She wanted to
Kill the damn bitch
What more can I say?
Killing's so fun
She always says
Secretly she wants to assasinate
And all of her friends
Had such an urge
To kill off the bitch and get world peace
She's gonna kill the bitch she said you're going to hell
Bitch was screaming off her head
Bitch had a horrid face and her soul was up in space
We hope she never comes back down to earthhhhhh

-end of verse 1-

vivacious
original
new
extraordinary.

lucky
oreos
vulnerable to
extra terrestrials.

2008-09-22T21:16:00.005+08:00

damn it.
i hate her.
I HATE HER.
I
HATE
HATE
HATE
her.

what the hell is wrong with that bitch
i thought i wouldnt have to see or hear her this whole week
and yet, she pops out

wtffff.

ps: in case anyone's wondering, it's not anyone from our class. it's someone i hated since the start of last year and have been hating that bitch of a lemon ever since.

2008-09-18T19:22:00.002+08:00

it's over.
i've been waiting all year for this to come.
yet now i wish it could rewind back to the very beginning
when we were still ip1 kids
and we were ignorant
childish
playful
unboring
innocent (okay maybe not)
and awaiting exciting years ahead.

it was a great journey for me and i can't wait for more things to unfold.
but the fact is ip life is coming to a close, even if they say it's not.
endings aren't really happy.
songs with titles like "happy ending" never really talk about happy endings.
i suppose that's life.

"Good things never come to a good end; they end so abruptly that it really sucks."

2008-08-27T23:00:00.001+08:00

Goodbye all.
Don't miss me.
I'm never coming back.
It's a different perspective, different attitude and different world.

I haven't given up, but I haven't exactly got everything either.

2008-08-01T19:36:00.003+08:00

okay the blog's back.
it returned. and im tired of posting in those sickly paragraphs so here's the return of the no-capital letters and short sentences with paragraph breaks every sentence.

just found out about something that kinda shocked me.
and that kinda got me to revive this blog and post this.
i suppose most of you already know about this, and i suppose im really slow because i just found out about this today.
i don't know how to put it really.
so i shall put it in pig latin.
you'll still get it, but i feel better putting it in pig latin.

anguagelay arts'day is'way oing-gay o'tay ebay eplaced-ray y'bay english'way.

there.
it's quite a gay attempt to put it in pig latin but whatever.
you probably dont even have to know pig latin in order to understand that.
now i shall swear in pig greek.

wubhat tubhe fubuck iubs wrubong wubith tubhem
hubow cuban thubey rubemubove lubangubuage aubrts

and now the rest of the post in pig latin

iway eallyray on'tday understandway everythingway
andway ywhay oesday everythingway eemsay osay orriblehay andway ewedscray isthay earyay?
udentsstay aren'tway irtday, ouyay owknay.

it doesnt really make sense does it.
well never mind.
and the 120suyu that we have to memorise, bravo.
this line.
geniuses chinese teachers are really, giving us 120 to memorise just a few weeks away from our
is just here. because im in a mass-killing spree mood.
exams. and guess what, they're not tested during the exams!
well goodbye.

2008-07-18T22:07:00.002+08:00

Hoho. This website is 100 percent dead. And yes I shall refer to this place as a website but not a blog because according to Ian, a blog is supposed to be a website whereby you pen your thoughts on a frequent basis. I don't suppose my posts are on a frequent basis so this shall just be a website. I think my writing in paragraphs is going to scare people away from this website but it's not exactly a bad thing because I'm not fussed about people not reading about this.

Today is Friday the Eighteenth. Not exactly a fine day today but not a bad one either. As usual, lessons were rather unexciting but obviously we had to listen. Language arts was once again weird without Ms Ong, her teaching style and antics.

So after school, Germaine, Chris and I went to take the Chinese Paper 2 because we wouldn't be able to take the paper tomorrow because we're going for the heritage run. Well, the room was freezing cold and that was what made doing the paper really horrid and uncomfortable. Other than that, I thought the paper was relatively fine, though some questions were off.

After that's done, the three of us with Kundan went off to Suntec City to look at the exhibitions and all. Apparently, Ms Ong drove past school or something because she saw us leave school. Oh, at the exhibition, there was this small black wall where you could write on post-its who you think your hero is, and we wrote stuff. I thought it was cool(:

So I reached home and decided to post a post on this website. Oh I very much like the paragraphs(: They look queer, which makes me feel better.

2008-07-14T22:13:00.002+08:00

Viva La Vida - Coldplay

I used to rule the world
Seas would rise when I gave the word
Now in the morning I sweep alone
Sweep the streets I used to own

I used to roll the dice
Feel the fear in my enemy's eyes
Listen as the crowd would sing:
"Now the old king is dead! Long live the king!"

One minute I held the key
Next the walls were closed on me
And I discovered that my castles stand
Upon pillars of salt and pillars of sand

I hear Jerusalem bells a ringing
Roman Cavalry choirs are singing
Be my mirror my sword and shield
My missionaries in a foreign field
For some reason I can't explain
Once you go there was never, never an honest word
That was when I ruled the world

- - -

And yes for some reason I can't explain why I'm feeling sad yet angry yet laughable yet depressed yet furious yet horrid. Laughable. How can I possible feel laughable at this horrible point in time? Comedians do crack me up. I should stop watching them if I feel sad yet angry yet depressed yet furious yet horrid next time. Because I do not want to have an extra laughable inside, which really ruins the whole image. And I have decided that henceforth, I shall type the posts in paragraph forms like such and I will add the capital letters for all my starting words and my "I"s. Typing like that irritates me a little already, I can't think of anyone who would want to read blog posts in paragraphs which such lousy content. So this post will probably put people off reading itself because I myself wouldn't really want to read such horrible content that just reiterates the same thing over and over again and is really useless and stupid.

So I suppose I'll end off here.

2008-07-07T22:12:00.001+08:00

it's back.
but it's gone.

goodbye.
comeback.

2008-06-28T12:21:00.004+08:00

back from sydney(:
enjoyed the trip overall.
i thought it was great really.
for me, sydney was better than korea. but that's just one man's opinion.
there were a few things which i thought were really awesome and i guess i'll mention them here first (coz i probably won't be posting a whole post on the entire trip, like last year's korea trip) :

1. the play was AWESOME.
"Between the Devil and the Deep Blue Sea"
it was great.
there were some parts that i couldn't catch, but overall, it was amazing.
the creepiness, the scary bits, the funny parts, everything was so cool.
especially liked the two sisters bit. they were so creepy, but so cool.
the audience thingy was cool too, and that guy was really sporting.
plays are nice(:

2. the university visits.
thought they were really helpful and stuff.
the students and tutors were cool. they told us loads of stuff about studying there and all.
unsw's goodie bag has lots of stuff but macq.'s talk was better i thought.

3. hunter valley.
i really like the zoo, the cheese factory and vineyard.
yea all of them.
good combination of fun and learning.

4. the art gallery of nsw.
the building's exterior was so cool already.
the chalk drawings were funny.
and our guide inside was cool.
learned loads from her. aboriginal art, modern art, etc.
this was definitely better than the art museum we visited at korea.
MUCH better.

and lastly, the sydney opera house.
the last time i went to the opera house, i just thought, oh okay. an opera house. cool.
but this time, i think i learned so much more about the opera house, like its history, structure, interior and exterior..

therefore overall, i really enjoyed this trip.
congratulations teachers, you have succeeded.

2008-06-17T23:44:00.003+08:00

flying off to sydney tomorrow.
while packing and stuff, suddenly didn't felt like going.
i think im going to miss my home.
staying at home, having lots of time to myself, listening to music, emoing in my emo corner, talking to my parents, relaxing and looking at stuff around in my room.
i am going to miss those stuff.

same feeling as last year for korea trip.
so i was talking to I.N. again
and he composed(:

The Life of Ian Albert and Jeremy Nicholas by I.N.
It's hard to know that things have changed.
Understanding that I won't see you, it is pain.
Long days with grey skies patching above
The days without you, full of sadness
Lasted this long without seeing your face
545 days before, full of you I gazed
I guess I didn't treasure that enough,
The new started with a scary blast.
You stopped everything, no connection at all.
Why, I asked you, reaching the hall.
You answer silently, it is not you, it's me,
Forget about me and go forth thee.
I can't, I say, you're there in my mind.
I'd give up all to see you be fine.
With a small smile, you reply:
I love you, but society must die.
Then let it die! I'll kill it now!
But then I thought, I can't even kill a hound.
You disappeared right before my eyes,
I couldn't shout wait, I couldn't say bye.
The next time I saw you was ages later,
You were laughing and smiling more than ever.
You were happy, I thought, and that is enough
To make me glad and then so rough
The truth really is because I don't know
If I should cry or I should go.

his best yet, to me.
i suppose I.N. was feeling really poetic.
i'll say the same things you say to me, but i don't think they'll work so im still thinking. give me time, i'll cheer you up.
i'll get stuff from sydney for you too.

byebye singapore.

2008-06-15T12:36:00.002+08:00

iMUN was fun(:
got to meet a lot of people and stuff.
super interesting to listen to the debates.
i like my committee as well, lots of interesting people.
they must think im very boring><
then there were thoughts about organizing a scaled-down one or something. it's cool to be the chair(: "house please come to order"

anyway, just remembered about the heritage run that some took part in last year
decided to find out more about this year's.
and yep i did.

Singapore HeritageFest 2008 - Fun on Foot, the Heritage Marathon!
(i did not add the exclamation mark, it's part of the whole name.)
it would be cool if we could send in teams again so im gonna ask ms toh about it or something(:
okay bye.

2008-06-04T14:49:00.001+08:00

The Call - Regina Spektor

It started out as a feeling
Which then grew into a hope
Which then turned into a quiet thought
Which then turned into a quiet word

And then that word grew louder and louder
'Til it was a battle cryI'll come back
When you call me
No need to say goodbye

Just because everything's changing
Doesn't mean it's never been this way before
All you can do is try to know who your friends are
As you head off to the war

Pick a star on the dark horizon
And follow the light
You'll come back when it's over
No need to say goodbye

You'll come back when it's over
No need to say goodbye

Now we're back to the beginning
It's just a feeling and no one knows yet
But just because they can't feel it too
Doesn't mean that you have to forget

Let your memories grow stronger and stronger
'Til they're before your eyes
You'll come back
When they call you
No need to say goodbye

You'll come back
When they call you
No need to say goodbye

.

2008-06-03T15:34:00.002+08:00

there are a lot things i would like to say to everyone
and usually i do say them.
but when i don't, it is usually because i don't have the chance to or i don't have the courage to.

and then I.N. will be there.

The Knight's Secret by I.N.
You'll probably freak out the moment I say
Something that expresses life as a way.
It is so odd but it can't be denied
Because love is something that's as strong as a tide.
Then say she's the girl and the only one;
She will be loved and whip out the gun.
Kill all who stands in your way brave soldier,
Protect her and your mission is completed dear sir.

tag replies:
kwanwei: you are so much cheesier(:
szeying: haha good for you. and so lucky...i wanna go too!
joelle: me too!(: play basketball yea!

2008-05-29T22:27:00.003+08:00

oh the holidays have started.
but it still feels like a school day.
reach school at 7.30
go to classroom
wait for i dunno how long then go to S&T centre for the biotech thing.

finally
the last day is TOMORROW.
but guess what.
that means that one freaking week of the school holidays are gone.
three weeks left.
*prays* let time pass two times slower than usual please.

then anyway the last four days have been bearable i guess.
went to some brewery today after the presentations and stuff.
we love to pick up people.
yes.

*waits for dabish and p2g*
so yea.
havent spoken to I.N. for a very long time.
he's a bit off.

The Eighth Wonder of the World by I.N.
"Mom, why is our house stinky like poo?", a little boy asks.
A brown wooden house stands beside the biggest rubbish dump in the country. It encompasses the interesting mixtures of brown, green and yellow, creating a unique blend of colors.
"Ian, I'm really sorry but dad and me cannot give you more than this for now...we understand that you need a good environment to grow up but we simply cannot afford...", the mother breaks off, hoping her little boy understands.
"Mom, our house may be like poo but it's definitely better than stupid little Tom across the street with his prancy little white house. At least there's love here. It's the 8th wonder of the world.", the boy says, sticking his nose up at the mansion opposite.
A tear falls down onto the dry grass.

tag replies:
germaine: yea she did! amazing right! haha. pointy(:
amanda: haha yea! that day we laughed like siao...kwanwei is sexy naughty and bitchy so cannot blame him.
kwanwei: got(:

2008-05-25T22:55:00.003+08:00

full day was awesome!

they took about i dno, an hour for assembly?
so yea, of course full day.
the day when announcements were spammed.
then went back to class...and mr loh came to class lol.
told him we would go and look for him but he came anyway.
then we gave him the card.
really sad that he won't be teaching our class anymore=(
he is a good teacher, what with his sweets and all.

then we went to marina square again lol.
always seem to go there when there's a full day.

then we went to kbox!
wow, havent been there in ages.
went for lunch session. surprisingly, the lunch wasn't too bad.
made moses startX)
then kwanwei and his omg funny song.
then me and him were trying our very very best to do zhong guo hua hah.
then there was this guy and girl version of tian tian ye ye..
can imagine the guys. (O.o)

kw, germ, moses and jr left around after kbox.
then szeying came and we went to the arcade.
house of the dead 4!!
but i didnt play heh. was watching alicia and szeying.
played bishi bashi(:

then went to bowl.
didnt really join in so i was just taking down the scores for amanda to keep.
alicia was super funny!
*POINTS*
she decided to point at her target halfway during bowling and she got the highest score in the end! omg! the secret to bowling haha.

so yep that was about it(:
havent had this much fun in ages. heh.
now for homework zomg.

tag replies:
desiree: i am intelligent(: lol schizoo hah.
kwanwei: blush haha. sexy eh(:

2008-05-16T17:09:00.002+08:00

WEEK 9 IS OVER.
it is
OVER.

and there are THREE DAYS.
THREE FREAKING DAYS BEFORE STUPID SCHOOL ON TUESDAY.
thank you, vesak day, because you probably saved the lives of thousands and thousands of people by giving us this day off.
*bows*

"maybe justice will prevail in the end. maybe all sinners will be made to pay for the crimes they committed sooner or later. maybe the world is fair after all.
but maybe evil always wins. maybe sinners get away scot free. and maybe the world isn't fair at all.
the two direct opposite sides of justice and righteousness. which will you pick, the pure and good white? or the dark and evil black?
there are so many things that would draw me to the dark side. magic you've never seen before, things you could do to your greatest enemy, mischief right under justice's nose and so many more.
there are so many things i would like to do that only the dark side can help me. things like hatred, abhorrence, detestation and of course, revenge.
.
but..there are three things that can drive me towards the good side and leave the dark side forever, abandoning my evil twin.
friendship, kinship and love.
the three most important things in life can make me drop my weapons, forget everything of my past and forgive.
i pray, bring me these three so that i can be free of the burdens hatred and revenge make me carry.
until then...i remain as grey as ever."

- Sin G. Nougitly

tag replies:
rachna: haha thanks(: let's go and buy hoodies!
kenneth: hm, i'll keep that in mind, thanks(:
kwanwei: funny? lol haha..yea there was, but this is better ain't it?(:

2008-05-09T18:12:00.002+08:00

finally the weekend.
what a tiring week it has been.
but still can't really rest this weekend, seeing as we have to study for tests and all.

someone who thinks that he or she is better than another person is in fact worse than that other person.

in every situation, we are given the right to choose whether or not we want to do it and not do it simply because we can do it.

2008-05-06T18:24:00.003+08:00

I.N., please take over.
and thank you very much for listening to me.

Shut Up You Bloody Bitch by I.N.

Everybody run, there's a bitch in sight!
Fly away or he'll steal your light.
Famines, droughts and everything bad,
Out from the bitch they come, how sad.
Freaking hell he's still crapping.
Fever's coming, he's not stopping.
Let's all shout together my friends:
"Asshole shut up, or we'll throw the hens!"

2008-05-04T18:01:00.005+08:00

GO AND DIE
GO AND DIE
GO AND DIE
GO AND DIE
GO AND DIE
GO AND DIE
GO AND DIE

cheers.
i like revenge somehow.
it's bad but it's the only thing that will satisfy my hatred by just a little bit.

weekends are good.
because i can scream all i want and no one will bother because i'm in my own room and also i can sit in the darkest corner of my room and listen to lovely music and pull my blanket over me with my plushie monkey sitting obediently beside me and no one will care like i said because it is my own room but the only thing i don't like about my room is that it is too cheerful because it is orange and filled with color that i want to tear out and chuck down the bin so that it stains my neighbourhood but maybe i wont do that because i dont want to live in a color filled place and the only color i want to see right now is black and more black.
i like that sentence.

maybe i should paint my room black and hang black stuff with big huge speakers dangling over everywhere so when i plug my mp3 into anyone of them they start playing music and i can close the door and scream like i want to everyday because.
i like that sentence too.

off.
but i guess i do like my room because there are some nice stuff in there that makes me feel like i want to start having revenge on someone but maybe i wont but anyway i like my grey skeleton hoodie pullover, my black jeans, my black cds shirt, my earphones, my orange bag which is the only orange thing i like in my room and i also like the darkest corner in my room because that's where i spend most of my time.

now im really off.
goodbye(:

tag replies:
ranon: hello...and i dont understand the rest of it alreadyO.o
lavan: lavan, lavan, lavan. it's called style y'know, and should i be honoured that you actually tagged on my blog? *bow*
desiree: omfg yes you did.

2008-04-24T22:20:00.003+08:00

S.O.S. - The Jonas Brothers

Told you I made dinner plans
You and me and no one else
That don't include your crazy friends
Well, I'm done with awkward situations
Empty conversations

Oohh, this is an S.O.S.
Don't wanna second guess
This is the bottom line
It's trueI gave my all for you
Now my heart's in two
And I can't find the other half

It's like I'm walking on broken glass
Better believe I bled
It's a call I'll never get

open house is coming in about a day..
all the best to everyone(:
a short summary of the week so far:

monday: there was language arts but no service learning.
i thought the lang arts lesson was quite well.
the ih lessons were weird.
biology was..i can't remember=.=

tuesday: did five stations during pe.
exceeded my expectations for sit-ups. i was expecting to do 5 or something.
then triple science day. fishes during bio(:

wednesday: was quite a normal day.
no civics though.
after school was ctcouncil investiture rehearsal.
kinda entertaining(:
i think like, 5people told me to smile? lol.
was i that stony? =P

thursday (today): also another normal day.
usher briefing was cancelled so can go for golf(:
there was a relief coach today.
chipping improved.
yay.

yep.
oh and our math teacher changed..yea.
right.

tag replies:
kwanwei: no problem(: yea exactly..how on earth does it help us in our understanding of physics concept lol..
szeying: haha okay..little weirdy(:
alicia: oh lol..not really spammed la. you can do better(: but good effort, yes

2008-04-18T18:46:00.002+08:00

the goddamit physics project is over.
technically, it was one week of chionging of experiment and powerpoints or webpages.
the other three weeks given to us...well, let's just say that it wasn't utilized at all(:

and now, i really have to thank I.N.
ladies and gentlemen, i present to you: I.N.

THAT GUY'S A BITCH! By I.N.

Hail the mighty bitch because
You may never see him again.
Pull down his pants and see that he was
Off the charts, that man.
Call for the cats and the dogs and the rats
Right down to this lane.
If they fail to kill you (that's sad),
Then it'll be me to cause the pain.

Ever-enchanting I.N.

yay.
guys can be bitches(:

p.s. : the poem ain't talking about kwanwei(: kwanwei don't worry, i won't kill you.

2008-04-16T22:04:00.002+08:00

nothing has happened so far so..
thanks I.N. (:

Disgusting Haiku that is Totally Wrong
by I.N.

Oh look the stone that wants our blood.
Dumbledore don't bother
I've cut myself so use mine, in fact use them all.

interesting.
and that's where i got my recent nick from(:

tag replies.
kenneth: heh. I.N.'s my mom's colleague's son..and his name isn't ian nicon actually. he changed it=.= that's probably why you can't find it or something..
szeying: remind me to show you tomorrow then(: it's not long. it's looooooooooongggg.
germaine: oh then i have achieved my objective(: spread the emo
gary: LOL O.O
kwanwei: yea whatever. hohum.

2008-04-14T15:28:00.003+08:00

freakin freakin freakin freakin freakin freakin freakin freakin freakin freakin freakin freakin worried about something now.
*bites lip*.
already thought of a story to avoid this impending disaster that might not even come but still...i can't help but worry over it.
what if a scolding comes?
what if they demand compensation?
what if they sue?
an infinite number of whatifs.
what if..
ohman.
not particularly enjoying this unofficial half day.
I.N. save me. do that and i'll post another one of your emo poems.
then we can pull our black hoods over our heads and listen to nice songs.
oh and i'll get you that black sunglasses you always wanted.

tag replies.
amanda: ah im okay ah. thanks(:
szeying: severus snape is a good boy. the guys you're crazy over are weird.
alicia: oh..thanks? lol i appreciate your um, kindness...
kenneth: o nice. snape doesn't really sing, it's alan rickman(: and the previous blog post means what it just means..no underlying meaning..

2008-04-09T18:06:00.002+08:00

ooh.
"cut here", in case it can't be seen.
should be "cut along the dotted line".
how about "saw along the dotted line"?
or or "slice along the dotted line"?
ah well.

"compare and contrast severus snape and the phantom of the opera."
(i know i'm not supposed to list them with bullet points and all but let's heck it for now.)
similarities:
1. both severus snape and the phantom are emo boys. this can be seen through the long black robes they both wear and the long wavy black hair they keep.
2. both severus snape and the phantom are very dedicated people. severus snape has dedicated almost his whole life to lily potter and the phantom did the same to the lead actress in the play (i sadly forgot her name).
3. both severus snape and the phantom have very crappy childhoods. severus snape has been teased and ridiculed in his school and the phantom, well, i don't think i have to say anything about it.
differences:
1. severus snape is exceptionally good at making potions and the dark arts whereas the phantom is exceptionally good at singing. not that i'm complaining but i can't imagine snape singing. O.o
2. severus snape has an ugly dark mark on his arm whereas the phantom has a, um, sad face. (different sorts of mutilation) (hm.)

so today was helmsman once again.
the lessons were quite boring, to be honest.
slashing seems so much more interesting.
council meeting later on wasn't too bad
congratulations to the newly selected exco, great job.
yep.

tag replies:
desiree: mm yea, uhhuh. right. nice eh(:
kwanwei: thanks..i'm not depressed. simply drifting in and out from the state of emo-ness(:
germaine: hey, thanks..oh yes emo(:
alicia: ah okay, thanks..it's a good idea to pray for peace(:

2008-04-08T17:13:00.001+08:00

new blogskin.
take emo pills and you'll start slashing yourself.
skulls are an important part of your body
therefore it is necessary to love them

helmsman week started today.
interesting.

2008-04-02T23:21:00.003+08:00

All the idiots in the world couldn't compare to you.

I didnt know you were such a bitch,
Until you gave me a very bad itch
In my throat so I would swear
All over you and all over there.
Only you can get angry,
Oh how I wish I could dump a bottle of pee
On you and just laugh til the cows come home,
Kicking your ass and smashing your bone.
Goodbye to you, I hope we'll never meet
Again coz you just make me sick.

Ian Nicon
- The Genius of the Century. oh and the Millennium.

bravo, I.N., just bravo.
it just pretty much sums everything up.
oh and thanks for giving me your favourite phrase:
"i may forgive easily, but i never forget."
in my case, i never forgive, never forget.
stay strong.

2008-03-29T22:50:00.002+08:00

ahhh.
help is wanted.

past few days were okay i guess.
the end of secondweek already, that's kinda fast.
currently have 8things to do already=.=
but at least helmsman week is coming.

germaine kinda poorthing this weekXP
but the alliance will soon be disbanded):
oh i PASSED HIGHER CHINESE.
omg. OMG.
and i dont think it's a borderline pass either:D
paper2 at least. quite happy that i got that mark.

today had the event which the exco nominees planned.
was amazing, really.
they had like what, 2days to plan for one whole event?
cool. and it was fun too heh.
goodjob(:

tag replies:
desiree: zz. okay. goodluck with your um..stuff. yes.
sharon: yo jiejie! haha. nice job planning today's event!:D
szeying: chinen is...okay nvm. no point saying(:

2008-03-17T23:29:00.002+08:00

hohh the first day of term2 is over.
wonder how the rest of the term will be like.
judging from the first day, it's not gonna be nice=.=

pe tomorrow(:
hope it's gonna be badminton or something.
i want basketball!
BOUNCE.
ahh i miss my basketballdudes.
the people who play with me anyway.
fiona, tinghuan and the rest of the neighbourhood kids who entertain us oh so very much.

andd J.A.C.K. too.
ahh why must the holidays end so fast=.=
well, as ctcouncil says:
"a new beginning with change descending" (:
term2 here i come(:

Upside Down - Jack Johnson

Who's to say
What's impossible
Well they forgot
This world keeps spinning
And with each new dayI
can feel a change in everything
And as the surface breaks reflections fade
But in some ways they remain the same
And as my mind begins to spread its wings
There's no stopping curiosity

I want to turn the whole thing upside down
I'll find the things they say just can't be found
I'll share this love I find with everyone
We'll sing and dance to Mother Nature's songs
I don't want this feeling to go away

Who's to sayI can't do everything
Well I can try
And as I roll along I begin to find
Things aren't always just what they seem

I want to turn the whole thing upside down
I'll find the things they say just can't be found
I'll share this love I find with everyone
We'll sing and dance to Mother Nature's songs
This world keeps spinning and there's no time to waste
Well it all keeps spinning spinning round and round and

Upside down
Who's to say what's impossible and can't be found
I don't want this feeling to go away

Please don't go away
Please don't go away
Please don't go away
Is this how it's supposed to be
Is this how it's supposed to be

- Curious George -

2008-03-13T17:43:00.002+08:00

i miss my bed.
sleeps.
and recovers.

back from camp.
was back yesterday already but anyway.
nice place with nice people
and nice camp.

too lazy to write down everything that happened coz lots of stuff happened
but to sum it up in three words:
initiative, urgency, loudness.
yep.

school's starting soon already.
arg.

2008-03-09T21:45:00.003+08:00

the ct council reminds me of dhsjab.
just kinda slacker.
the camp tomorrow seems like our annual leisure camp every year
and it brings back so many memories.

now i really miss dhsjab.
my squad
my housemates
the entire home of dhsjab.
it was just two years.
two years that i was part of dhsjab, yet it's going to be part of my life and memories forever.

i still remember the last annual leisure camp i went to.
the house of delta/dactyl.
the purple house.
the bow&arrow.
i still remember the activities we did
the games we play
and of course, who could forget the amazing nightwalk.

going off for ctcamp tomorrow.
kinda excited.
it reminds me of dhsjab.
a part of my memories i will never forget.

tag replies~
ken: haha sorry! i sorta stoned coz didnt expect to see youXP
desiree: =) don't you like it? okay i'll change it after camp(:
joelle: will do!(:
amanda: just did(: and you GO DIE. so evil la you guys!
kwanwei: so evil! go taiwan and do your job there instead!
charmaine: hello! camp's tomorrow! haha. cya then!(:

2008-02-23T18:49:00.002+08:00

finally.
it's the weekend.
the best days of a week.
and im facing a huge pile of homework right in front of me.
i've listed the things i have to do in these two days.
and it doesnt look good.
plus the fact that review test is coming in one week's time, my whole life just kinda sucks right now.
im guessing it's not just me, but you never know. *shrugs*

so. i shall try to recall what happened in this week.
hm.
...
the rushing for chemistry project was a good experience.
especially the end of the filming. practical climbing lesson(:
and dy/dx is just totally weird.
not that i dont get it, but it's just, i dno, weird.
and the classcomm's out.
and psychology was interesting once again.
and golf was a relief. coach said totally rocks.
and the chinese singing/photography session during EA was cool. although im not saying i like chinese now. it still stinks.
and the geography quiz was totally off. guessing was 95% apparent.
and my tablegroup rocks. we just laugh every single lesson, i think my sore throat'll just continue. rachna is so IMH escapee. lavan's the second.
"the table's the funniest we've ever been on." quoted from lavan.
note: he's talking about the table and not the groupX)

okay now back to work.
hohum.
I.N.
i need your help. send some weird emo stuff into my mind.
this week's been terrible=.=

2008-02-11T18:35:00.000+08:00

cny break's over):
had quite a fun time though(:
went to malaysia, kl, so i skipped school on wednesday
had this amazingly long car ride all the way there
and i slept quite a lot >.< the times when i wasn't sleeping, i was listening to my mp3. so we reached my grandparents' house at around 7pm and surprisingly, my cousins were there already. usually they only turn up on the first day but oh well. better anyway, then i'll have someone to talk to. so dinner...and my grandfather was lao-ing the yusheng on his own until my dad said in cantonese:"pa, you're taking all the good luck by lao-ing yourself?" then everyone was laughing until we were gonna die :D so my cousins went home after that. oh and they're all younger than me. kai's 13, coral's 11 and darren's 8. closest to kai though, since we sorta grew up together i guess. i mean, everytime i go back to malaysia, i always play with kai(: until coral and darren came along. which isn't a bad thing but never mind, im rambling.

so thursday came, and i was stoning in the room. coz my cousins weren't here yet. oh but my baby cousin, johann, came with my uncle and aunt(: he's 10months old and he's super cute(: see alicia, i have cute baby cousins too^^ then after lunch, we went to this huge carrefour near the house and we just stayed there for the aircon. the house was almost gonna burn up and everyone was gonna become roasted humans because of the heat. went for dinner later on and finally, my cousins arrived. eat and stuff yea. vegetarian. then went to petaling street to shop and stuff. and something really weird happened. shall not describe it here because it's so darn weird. hm.

then friday came. was still stoning in my room yea. then kai, coral and darren came(: oh and yiyi, my other cousin. she's 11 too. then we were playing cards and stuff. oh and kai, coral and darren stayed over at the house that night(: at least it was noisier.

then saturday came. time for the ultimate car ride home again! but before that, we took a couple of photos. then back to singapore(: when we got back, it was quite late already so we ordered take-in.

then sunday came. my parents went visiting while i stayed at home to finish up some work. then my relatives came(: as in the ones staying in singapore. they came for dinner, then my cousins decided to teach me how to play the REAL mahjong. geraldine was explaining to me when i got all confused=.= then anthony turned out to be the best player haha. angela won once and i didn't win at all=.= even when my dad and my aunt were helping me at the side. then we switched to play in-between which is a cool game but if you are feeling unlucky, dont play(: so today was the start of school again. i hate the 7periods. chemistry project's disgusting. did a little today. yep that's about it. byebye(:

tag replies~
joelle: thanks(: i don't really love them but okay(: so how's life?
germaine: haha it happened because i was stupid=.= i covered the part where the sparks were shooting outXP
ken: haha thanks! happy cny to you too!
amanda: yea let's HUAT arh! haha. the integrated cheer was hilariousX)
chris: okay relinked(: oo cool(: ian's a nice name. haha my tagboard's cool ain't it? :D

2008-02-02T11:20:00.001+08:00

so i didn't have to wait til months later
to see you.
so i couldn't contain my excitement
when i saw you.
so i jumped up and down
when i heard you.
so i wanted to change
to be you.
so i hope you'll back
soon.
the irresistable indescribable uncontrollable you.

-Ian Nicon

I.N. sounds emo.
but im glad for you since you finally got what you wanted(:
oh and your words have impact, so im using them.
hope that cheers you up I.N. (: